[d]iRt@e Lau[d]ry

I made it. finally i made it.

2008-08-18T05:34:00.000-07:00

For once, I am unabashedly proud of myself.
Hurray for me.
Who would have thought huh....*grins*

GONE.

2007-08-10T10:57:00.000-07:00

My closest pals - Nsync will be performing a series of songs to help me convey the purpose of this post.

1. Bye Bye Bye.

2. Gone

Yes. Denise has left this building/blog. No particular reason except for a need for new beginnings. I love this blog and i don;t think i can bring myself to delete (esp for that one special comment :) ) I am not giving up bloggin entirely, FRET NOT! I have a new blog!!

Again my good friends - Fountain of Wayne will help provide a hint as to where this new blog will be.

Yes yes. Come ask me if you want the new address. I will give it to you if i like you :)

Goodbye nufoundclarity, we had some great times!! Onward !!!

TAGGED.

2007-07-04T10:18:00.000-07:00

Dammit. Apparently i've been
TAGGED
What this means, is that i have to do a post about 6 wierd traits of mine.

Now, i am panicking because I definitely have more than 6 wierd traits. HECK, i'm the circus where wierd traits gather and hold conferences about how else they could make me fit in less with the normal crowd. And therefore it becomes tricksy to choose 6 traits tats are wierd enough to amuse and yet not too wierd because i cant risk you guys finally figuring out that i'm from a superior human race destined to run the world in another year or so.

Hokay hang on to your panties you all, here we go...

1. I have a double eyelid on one eye and single eyelid on the other. My secondary school teachers says its genetically impossible so i guess i am a freak of nature. Anyway my dad has single eyelids while my mum has doubles SO i'm just being FAIR right.. 50% of each.

2. My name is Denise and my sister's name is Bernice. This is because my dad is David and my mum is Brenda. My mum recently revealed that they almost named me Dorothy. I don't know if this is sadder, or the fact that my sister would have been called Borothy!!! LOL

3. The big toe on my right foot CLICKs everytime i raise it. I believe i stubbed my toe like twice. once on the door and the other while playing softball. I must have done something to it!! *shrug* doesnt hurt though just clicks!

4. I have a loose jaw. I can lock my jaw just yawning. I've locked it so many times i forget. In fact the longest time i had my jaw locked was for like 4 hrs after which i went to the 24hr clinic where the doctor taught me how to unlock it. I got so good at it, i could do it with just one hand and now i can kinda twist my jaw and unlock it without using hands. FREAKY!!

5. I cry real easily when watching TV. Extreme makeover Home edition ALWAYS gets me. Oprah sometimes.. the kinds of shows where really deserving people get great stuff .... oh i don't just sniffle ok i friggin SOB..

6. I can sorta control some of the dreams i get at night. I can't control everything but basically if something is happening that i dun like, i can sorta change the storyline.. usually it doesnt go very far after that but its kinda cool if you ask me :)

OK. done.

Black Horse and the Cherry Tree

2007-05-23T17:06:00.000-07:00

A major bummer of growing up, is actually having to make grown (GROAN) up life decisions about your urm. life.

Which majorly sucks because i.m.h.o (for the uncool and unhip: In My Humble Opinion) i'm just not wise enough to make the right ones. My mum always told me i was mentally unsound or in her own words - SIAO and i believe her! Shes my mum for cryin out loud. I should certainly qualify fer some sort of certificate saying i'm unfit for life-decision-making. But ALAS (always liked that word, its a chi-chi way of saying WAH BIANG EH) life is unfair and I have come to the point where i have to make those damned decisions.

*if you are wondering to yourself at this point, why i'm rambling? its because its 8 Friggin' AM and i find myself in school (!?!?!?) revising for French test later. Which, if you know me well enough, means i've alrd downed 2 cups of coffee and am currently running on pure adrenaline*

*God i thanks thee for coffee plants and thus coffee beans and fire and humans to fry those beans and strainers and hot water and milk and cows for that matter and sugar and sugar cane and urm cups... and urm opposable thumbs! *

Back to the point of this post.
Why cant it be simple clear-cut decisions i have to make ? Mengapa? Why couldn't i have to choose between World Peace and Global Destruction for example. Now that choice would be clear. BUt no.............. first i had to get accepted for summer program at Canada and then relinquish my spot because it was a better decision to stay in Sin-gah-por *phhft* NOW, i thinking it may be a better decision to give up doing FYP with the Zoo and potential long term work for another project i think may be more beneficial at this point in time. SERIOUSLY. I dun know what to do. I pray but the replies are usually not that speedy arh. And i talk to the mother and she says ZOO ZOO ZOO.. dun want you stuck in the lab with flies no social life. The woman just wants me to stop studying and get married. I suspect she thinks we are still in the year 1786 or sumthing. NO HELP FROM THAT DEPARTMENT.

*anguish*
I know i may potentially sound like a spoilt brat. I know i should be grateful that i at least have choices. But its scary. You don't wanna grow up bitter for making the wrong choice you know. Gawd. You dun wanna be Halle Barry with the awards and accolades and then decide to do Catwoman and REGRET!! LIKE HELL.

ok la. should be studying francais. Au revoir~!

Why i HEARTS Hugh Laurie.

2007-05-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

First of all, if you dunch know Hugh Laurie, you don't watch House. If you don't watch House, you dont appreciate good TV. Seriously. Your eyes have grown on your face below the eyebrows and above the nose for no good reason at all if you don't watch House. Seriously.

i think i've been watching too much Grey's. I keep saying seriously. I also watch too much Scrubs because i keep wanting to dance awkwardly and say Frick instead of you know the other F word.

Just caught the 2 hour backdoor pilot of Kate Walsh's grey's spinoff show... the storyline's embedded into the recent episode of grey's. I guess they are testing waters to see pple's response. My response is - I HATE IT. OK hate is a strong word let me rephrase. I TRIED REALLY HARD TO LIKE IT BUT I FIND MYSELF STAYING TUNE ONLY BECAUSE KATE WALSH IS HOT AND TAYE DIGGS MELTS MY HEART. Bleah. Much as i'd appreciate more Kate screen time and more drOooling at Taye, i really wish they wouldnt have this spinoff. But that being said, sometimes it takes a while to like a show and maybe it'll get better. ah whatever.

The focus of todays post is to show you 10 reasons why i HEARTS hugh laurie. Enjoy.

1. He sings funny songs

2. He can pull of Hugh Grant hair while singing a love song to a tennis player

3. He can sing a song without any lyrics at all!

4. He can be funny even next to the Queen.

5. He's funny just being himself.

6. He dances for Charity (Idol gives back)

I'll think of 7,8,9 and 10 when i;m not so sleepy la

who let the dogs out?

2007-05-03T06:43:00.000-07:00

phew.
been an action packed couple of days, spending time with my darlings as soon as the lecturer collected the papers on monday.

thai, western, italian, japanese, local....
wild hogs, pursuit of happyness, over the hedge, stranger than fiction....
shopping........

yes my friends life is good.

speaking of stranger than fiction, i urge you to watch it. seriously. I myself was unexpectedly pleased at how it turned out. Props to Will Ferrell seriously...catch the trailer here...

In other news, sorry mambo plans fell thru... neh'mind at least we had our own ladies night and we'll mambo next week... without Jacq and Dan though... SHUCKS. Special shout out to the ALMONDS. Rehearsals start soon so start gyrating those HIPS.

AND. Ellen. I love Ellen.
The poor darlin hurt her back but is still hosting from a HOSPITAL BED. Now thats commitment!

Off to chalet/ graduation party at changi. Will start packing my bags as soon as i stop OOoglin at Jon Bon Jovi...

Ciao~!

Spinning Off

2007-04-27T02:24:00.000-07:00

K so by the time i reached school today its was like friggin 3pm. Pathetic. I had Idol Gives back hangover plus i'm sick (again). I could give Macy Gray a run for her money today because i sound 'sexier' than ever. H'anyway the only plus is that Jacq and I had 1 for 1 coffee (yums). The canteen and the library is so empty its so depressin - its the majority of the people are done with muggin and are now enjoying the sweet rewards of freedom kind of EMPTY. phhft.

Speakin of which, the biggest salute for the people actually studying for their last papers even though the are graduating this sem. If it were me, I's be at palm beach with a hot stud by now. Speaking of beaches and hot studs, the parents are heading to Bintang on the weekend of 12th and 13th and i could,

a. Go with them and laze on the beach whilst they have their retreat (free transport and accomodation hell-yeah)

b. Stay in singapore and get the house and car for the whole weekend (hell-yeah!!)

I love it when its a win win situation especially if i;m the one winning!!

In more Entertainment News, my FLABBER was GASTEd last night at Idol Gives Back. Firstly no one got voted out but they put poor Jordin in the horrible position of thinking she was getting the BOOT. so mean. Secondly, ANNIE LENNOX. need i even elaborate? She makes me feel like I'm in my mother's womb all over again when she sings. SEXAY! Thirdly, Celine and ELVIS. H'omg H'omg H'omg. I love ELVIS especially before he started bindging on peanut butter sandwhiches and got FAT. H'omg.

In some not so pleasing news, Grey's Anatomy has decided that Kate Walsh (va va VOOM) should leave and do her own SPIN OFF and I. AM. NOT. PLEASED. She's my Mc Steamy (together with Eric Danes) and the reason why i put up with Ellen Pompeo and her whiny "love me pick me" character Meredith. Have they not learnt from Joey (only lasted 1 and a half season)? Spin off don't work!! they are pretty much DOOMED. We all prefer CSI Las Vegas don't we?? Ok so Frasier happened to work but thats ONE that survived. Sigh sigh sigh. I hope they at least let her come back if the spin off don't work PHULEEZE!!! oh but Taye Diggs is said to be joining her on the spin off so thats one more hunk to gush at. ABC are you listening to me????? NO SPIN OFF! NO!

happy.

2007-04-25T18:05:00.000-07:00

Advantages of staying near Bukit Timah hill:

1. lotsa greenery
2. You're close to nature
3. Its peaeful and serene

Disadvantages:

Everytime it friggin' rains, my house bloody FLOODS! Look at me! I'm not kiddin' it floods. Like roll up your pants to your knees and clear the clogged drain before we need to build a damn arc kinda flood. And then.. down Bukit Timah road to school JAM. Not the nice kind we spread on bread every morning but the kind that makes you puke if you are like me and have motion sickness. By the time i got to school I just wanted to concuss and I would've but i have a paper at 5. dammit.

There was this irritating guy walking behind me on the way to the library. When we got to the lift, instead of just shaking off his umbrella like normal people do, he was twirling it like he was friggin' part of the flower drum song dance troupe!!!!!! WTH. I. WILL. NOT. COMMENT. BOUT. SUCH. IDIOTS. NO. MORE.

Lastly, amazon.com owes me an explanation.

If you cant see, this is what it reads:

Dear Amazon.com Customer,

Because you've bought gay and lesbian DVDs, you might like to know that you can download "The L Word" and Logo shows and watch them today on your PC (or in many cases, your TiVo).

Try downloading "The L Word" or buy gay and lesbian themed DVDs. You can rent or buy thousands of movies and TV shows from Amazon Unbox Videos. US customers only.

k erm.
a. I din buy no gay and lesbian DVD
b. I'm not a US customer.

Why send me something not meant for me in the first place, with an offer I can;t even accept. great.

And NO. this is not my way of coming out or anything. Don't let your mind wander.

HEarT SoNGs

2007-04-15T17:13:00.000-07:00

Although i am not a penguin (pls watch happy feet), I seem to have some song stuck in my head every morning. Quite a random song..just pops in and stays..doesnt even have to be something i heard the night before or while i was bathing.. it just creeps into my head somehow. Maybe, it was always in there and randomly gets triggered to come on..*gasp* Maybe my brain is sending me subliminal messages!

Anyway, its subtle. You don't hear it until you are alone somewhere or for a random second, you find yourself quiet.. and then you will hear it or subconsciously start humming along to it.

I realised that this sem has been so busy for me, i havent stopped to hear my song and this morning for the first time, at 730am in school at the empty science canteen, i heard it. Hey Jude by The Beatles. Kind of a pick-me-up kinda song and yet kinda a sad tune...bittersweet. Been using that word alot lately.

Friday mass was bittersweet. Mostly bitter but in some way, knowing that there are pple worth crying for in your life, pple who've touched you so much and been there for you so much then you cry just thinking what you'd do without them in school...Thats sweet. Its different this time. Not like in primary school and secondary school where we cried cause we were not in the same class or going to the same school. We knew back then we'd meet SOMEHOW. But this time, its serious. If we don't try hard, we are gonna go work and have kids and totally not talk to each other until some wedding or (choy!) funeral. This time we're gonna graduate, no more school, WORK.. adult stuff. No SHIT ladies and gents this time is IT. And so, I hug them all each time i see them and each time we say goodbye.. you'd never know right? when the last hug is gonna b... so you do it as often as you can! Depressing SHIT. sigh.

In other news, AVRIL LAVIGNE HAS SOLD OUT! pui.
WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?

How does one go from punk rock, attitude chick with balck skull socks to FISHNET STOCKINGS and SHORT SHORTS and *GASP* SYNCHRONISED DANCING WITH CHEESY CUTESY DANCE MOVES?????????????????????????????????????????????

IT DOESNT MATTER THAT I KINDA LIKE THIS SONG OK! pple are usually cutesy BEFORE they get married! WTH??? SHe sOLd Out! Period.

Guys. Learn.

2007-03-15T11:27:00.000-07:00

As if i havent yet proven myself as a true blue GEEK, today we are gonna talk about Sexual Selection.
Sexual selection is a specific fitness component of Natural Selection.
In sexual selection, we are concerned with mating and fertilization sucess.
With regard to mating sucess, it is determined by 2 factors

1. Intra-sex competition - where the "winner" gets access to the other sex ( usually females)
2. Mate Choice - where (usually) females get to choose her partner in the process deciding paternity of her offspring.

What should a male do to get chosen? You show as best as you can, ALL your desirable qualities and traits.

Which is why ah-bengs grow long pinkie finger nails, why guys often overdo the GEL, why girls look like friggin geishas even at 8am lectures, why John Travolta couldn't stop thrusting his hips suggestively in a whole string of movies...etc

OK you get my drift ya.. usually its the male of the species that do the attracting while the females choose... we'll talk abt why next time...
Now, allow me to quote Jeff. This was at ah-mei eating prata "eh guys veh poor thing one leh, ebery time money we pay, if don't call means we don't care if call at wrong time kena scolding then best lor..angry then still say nothing..nothing.. face so black still say nothing..win liao lor"

So the guys think they work veh hard, veh poor thing hor.......
PLEASE LA EVEN A BIRD DOES MORE TO WIN OVER THE LADIES LOR...

EVIDENCE: The Lyre Bird
DESCRIPTION: This bird despite having a attractive plumage, mimics the call of birds of nearly 20 other species and even mimics other sounds of the forest just to attract females.

SIDE NOTE: Make sure the room is quiet when you watch this. Amazin' stuff.

Even birds work so hard. Guys so lah. This fella just up-ed it for you guys.

Jeff's response when i showed him this "Wah now i know why the singapore idol and project superstar so popular lor, better go find dick lee to coach me or something."

I believe there is a reason for everything and the reason why Jeff spouts rubbish like this is to ensure that NO ONE WILL EVER MATE WITH HIM and pass his DIMWITTED-NESS, AH-BENG MANERISMS AND 80s FASHION SENSE ONTO THE NEXT GENERATION. God is good.

Comics.

2007-03-05T22:53:00.000-08:00

Please be prepared to feel disturbed. I apologise for what you are about to see.
Again. Macs can spell alot of trouble. ALOT.

dead.lines.

2007-03-03T20:16:00.000-08:00

Now i see it... I know why I did absolutely NUTHIN' during the mid sem break.. I must have some amazin' foresight, the wisdom to predict the "Deadline Tsunami" that is about to fully consume my mental health and further detriment my already pathetic social life. Deadlines are terribly unhealthy..because you worry about the now and the future..thats double doses! And yeah eventually you end up dead or near lifeless as its name suggests.

U know what else is unhealthy? I've slipped back into tardy-ness... THIS is a geniune cause for concern! Bad Denise BAD! Get your act together for pete's sake!! Speaking of Pete, who the hell is Pete? and why do I have to do things i dun necessarily like doing for His sake.. This pete guy better bloody hell be a Ooh-lal-la gorgeous man in uniform! The things I've been doing for him seriously....

Its wierd this sem.. its painfully bitter sweet.. love the fact that i'm spending more time with my beloved same-feathered birds..flocking together more often nowadays..fully enjoyin their company but also constantly reminded that they are graduating at the end of sem. Bloody soddin' depressin. These are my "war buddies"..pple who've been thru hell and high seas with me..pple who i truly love and care about... not being able to hang during free periods is gonna be so wierd, un-natural and just plain sadd. I feel just EMPTY thinking about it. sigh. Anyway guys you noe how much i HEARTs you all.. Shirley, Jacq, Regina, Daniel, Natalie, Jason...cant remember the rest la too damn traumatic.. Hearts u all..all the same !!

H'annette Woo dun forget to rehearse our 'carpenters act' and remember to wear our matchin threadless on Friday..

8am lessons tmr..CIAO~!

Mcfun!

2007-02-27T06:59:00.000-08:00

What happens when you get bored at the library and have new toy to play with? You end up SO not studying!!

Will name my new baby soon I'm still mourning lapy. Can't think of an appropriate name..Suggestions?

Haiya this week busy week arh..will be back..

Ciao~!

restless.

2007-01-22T06:49:00.000-08:00

Bloody hell. So restless without my laptop.
So restless and uninspired to start on my friggin' lab reports. So restless my mind's been wonderin. I kept replaying in my head, that night at Munchie's trying to find that exact moment where I could have turned my head and realised my laptop was at the table right beside us and rescue it. Its like I've allowed my child to get lost at the shopping mall because i was too busy digging at the SALE pile. I feel like i've let my laptop down. I keep imagining it on some rickety table with poor lighting probably used to surf porn or something. Worse still, sometimes i see it dismembered, with the hard disk here and CD rom drive there. Shit la. I've also been thinking, if i could turn back time, should i go back to the time where we walk into munchie's and make sure i never leave my laptop unattended OR go back in time and do everything the same way but making sure i SEE THE BLOODY COLD BLOODED, LACKING IN CIVIC MINDEDNESS, SCUM OF THE EARTH, EVIL EVIL THIEF THAT STOLE MY BABY! then i think..no no no cannot be so VENGEFUL but i look over to the study table and my FUJITSU is not there.. my pictures.. my blog addresses... my songs...my videos.. are ALL NOT THERE. shit. shit. shit. MAY THE FLEAS OF A MILLION CAMELS INFEST YOUR ARMPITS!!!!

*deep breath* On a lighter note, shitty times such as these make more prominent thy trusty true friends. Oh Belle, what good have I done to deserve you la my love! Who else would be more kan chiong spider than me about my laptop? Trying all ways and means to find a miniscule beam of hope.. I adore you. H'annette Woo! thanks for Balderdash, Swordfish at Fish and Co. and "long kao jui" coffee and yes the hell ride back home. Yeah and Shirley and Monika and Ding Li and Daniel and yeah i could go on and on... but YES I'm so touched and blessed :)

In a huge twist of my NUS story, I find myself enjoying school this sem. I love the lsm modules i'm doing this sem. ES is cow-loads of fun and English is mind boggling and fascinating at the same time. The thing about lvl 3 LSm modules, is that you get the more experienced lecturers. These are people who have been doing what they do for donkey years ( i dunno how to convert to human years). It is most inspiring to sit and listen to lectures delivered with the comfort that can only be the product of years of experience and a great wealth of knowledge. Coupled with the type of passion that comes with ultimate devotion to a study of something one truly truly feels for. It may be about big primates, small insects, Big forests and ecosystems or small lichens and mosses. When the heart is sincere, it comes through. I think I've become a true blue science GEEK. Just the other day, Prof Hugh Tan was explaining how each of us has a unique combination of immune genes/proteins. This combination gives a characteristic body smell. Therefore in sexual selection in Homo Sapiens, smell comes into play. We would therefore be subconsiously attracted to a person whos odour indicates that that individual has a combination of immune genes that compliments ours. This is nature's (and IMHO God's) way of ensuring that the resulting offspring would get a complete or near complete immune system. COOL SHIT right? OMG. it fascinated me so much because IT MAKES SO MUCH FRIGGIN SENSE. Why people would take other people's laptop without considering the fact that it contains so much personal stuff and hard hard work makes none the slightest semblence of a sense to me! *scoff*

Ya know, sometimes when i tell people I'm in Science Faculty and I'm in the Catholic Students' Society, people get all smug and remark " I tot religion and science do not agree? " I tell you. If you study science, you'll see the complete symmetry found in a flower, the arrangement of petals in a rose according to 2 consecutive numbers in the Fibonacci's series, how your lungs are perfectly adapted to most efficiently draw oxygen from the environment, how your heart a single muscled organ the size of your fist could supply the entire human body, how we squeeze all the intestine into our abdomen and how a bird's closest animal relative is a CROCODILE and DINOSAUR... you have no choice but to submit and subscribe to the existance of a greater power and higher being. That greater power for me is my God. Simple as that.

Oh yah last random note, banner painting is so damn theraputic. Its like artistic/creative yoga. Having to do awkward squarts, bending, kneeling machiam playing twister to avoid wet paint is painful, strangely rewarding and even helps improve one's overall dexterity! Oh not to mention the turpentine HIGH! I think the final product rocks socks! Open your eyes big big when you go Central Forum HOR!

Ok. i think i've over compensated for my lack of enteries due to the lack of lap top.

Till the next time i get BLOG-spired.

2007-01-18T18:31:00.000-08:00

The laptop was stolen.
For real.
Sigh.

People keep asking if there was anything important in it, I've had it for 3 yrs, thats 3 yrs of songs and photos and lab reports and designs and who knows what other random stuff but its three years of MY random stuff and therefore Yes. Everything in it was important. To me it was.

2007-01-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

First comes love then comes marriage and then the baby carriage !?!

Try this.

First comes Honors then comes Masters and then the pHD.

Here's the story of the poor undergraduate souls trapped in an endless persuit for higher accolades and more alphabets added to the back of their names.

We the so-called cream of the crop (what crop? corn?) come in as freshmen at 19 and are soon transformed into Mugger Toads with days filled with lectures and tutorials and printing notes and reading notes and writing reports and reading journal articles, with a social life slowly but surely ceasing to exist, with social skills and abilities to interact and care for each other tossed aside to focus on our A+ and our 1st class honours.

The more you suceed in Mugger Toadiness, the more you fail miserably at keeping up to date with family matters and with friends and their struggles. Heck you don't even bother to detest people anymore. Theres no time. You don't exercise. You don't shop. You don't go out. You don't even hang out. You don't chill and you don't laze.

After 7 years of mugging. With enough degrees, certificates and awards to wall paper your house, you realise that in the midst of getting 'smarter', you got colder, and further, more distant, more unaware, more insensitive, more ignorant, more unapproachable and more unlovable.

I don't want that to be me. Which is why I brought the entire family out to dinner at Siam kitchen. My treat :) because i know Uroups and CGL and volunteering is gonna take me away from homecooked nightly dinners.

Then i get home and i have the wildest conversation with a dear ol friend whos apparently found the one whom she wants to spend her life with. I promised to be her wedding planner and Godma to her children when the day comes. We joke and I find it amusing at first to hear someone talk so seriously about marriage and kids. Then i realise it is no joke to her. Its real. We're 21. When pple talk about getting married, its OK. Its acceptable now, not tabOo or unrealistic. When pple ask when its your turn to settle down and have kids..its maybe not so much taunting anymore..its a VALID QUESTION. yikes.

The horror of realising that marriage and kids are SO not in any of my near future plans at all. As in who the hell thinks of getting married whilst at lecture or tutorial? you think about the textbooks you need to buy or the notes you neeed to zap. Yikes even if the bf was willing right now, i could never commit to settling down. Not now. I have degrees to get and jobs to suceed at.

Ew.. So am i the one with the problem?

We have friends our age, dressed in office clothes with working pple hair and make up and THEY look 21 and professional. We conquer the world in mismatched jeans, t shirt and sandals everyday and get our I/c checked at the movies and clubs because WE LOOK like teenagers.

Something is wrong lah is it me or NUS? pray tell.

Spring Cleaning.

2007-01-06T23:26:00.000-08:00

Just clearing out the photos in my phone. Yes i realise that once again i've left my blog to rot in failure-to-update hell.
Its been on heck of a holiday, but its so hard to string together alphabets to tell you exactly how i spent it but i think it was good. I think i had sufficient family time, work time, Css time, friends time maybe not enough personal God time. But new year, new start, new commitments yar. Phhft Im starting to sound like some horoscope magazine. GeeZ. MOOoving On....

Annette "sesame" Woo is so gonna yell at me for these photos but well everyone else at the science library everyday already knows we are off our rockers...what more harm can come out of this right?

Its amazing what one shawl and a few scrunchies can do. really.

Would you look at this woman wearing her jacket inside out and flashing the labels for the world to see!! That is what i had to put up with OK on top of studying. She was completely clueless that she was wearing it inside out until she tried to put her hands into the pocket...*shakes head*

Ok. Annette says she has beautiful handwriting which she is really proud of OK..always showing off to me..and putting it up on display.. I let you see lah hor..i think it speaks for itself.. What we think of it, you and I know can already lah hor.. she can live in her own self delusion ok. set arh. ok.

K enuff. Next entry we will talk about Japan.

so self-explanatory

2006-12-02T08:29:00.000-08:00

So proud.

2006-12-02T08:07:00.000-08:00

once in a while.
the tides turn.
Instead of being utterly embarrassed by your parents, once in a blue moon, you are actually proud of them. PROUD.
My mama was commissioned as a communion minister today. The first batch of female communion ministers at SMOTA. Its so wierd but suddenly i'm in the role of proud parent. I couldn't help smiling like a moron when i saw her walk in with the group at mass today. Ah. I wanted to HOOT so loudly but its kinda inappropriate at church so i just kinda muffled myself, turning my HOOT into a murmur??

SO proud.
HEH.

Denise likes it.

2006-11-21T16:43:00.000-08:00

If you've watched the most recent episode of Grey's Anatomy, you would have seen that character that speaks of himself in the third person. I think its so funny cause i only do it when i'm bloggin but maybe i should start doing it in my daily conversations as well. Its so cool. Imagine.
Denise thinks you are stupid.
Denise thinks its absolute crap.
Denise thinks its absolutely fabulous.
ok. set. i'm so starting this.

H'anyway. Denise has had a civil morning. I like people who behave civil-y... i think we live in a modern society where most of us have been or are being educated. highly educated at that *scoff*. so we should be fully able to be civil to each other. Denise thinks its absolutely cool for that gold Honda to give way to the father's black Nissan this morning. Denise also thinks it was tremendously nice for that fella with the striped polo tee to hold the lift for her at the library block. Most of all, Denise thinks it was most sweet of the guy to hold the door and wait for her to get out first when the lift reached the 6th floor of the library. Nice. See...Singaporean MEN.. its the small gestures that count.. *roll eyes*

Yes so. back at the library. You know you are here too much when the smell of the library just hits you and registers in your brain the moment you step in. Oh and the air is saturated with stress molecules! Its seeping outta everybody's pores.

Stress molecules. Made up of 2 atoms of "study week is ending", 2 atoms of " i'm never gonna finish these notes" and 2 atoms of " i should never had pon that week's lecture"

Oh wells. its the same shit sem after sem.

Anyway. You know "idol bands" or what you call ou xiang tuan ti. Those cutesy people that start off doing idol dramas then the anyway grab a few of them..throng them together and slap them with some numerical (e.g 5566, 183) or alphabetical (e.g S.H.E) or a mixture of both ( e.g F4, K1) name. *cough* totally exploitation *cough* and they usually receive great sucesses because their characters in those dramas have already some kind of endearment with the viewers. But its apparent that most of them don't last la. After a while their dramas fall into the same equation.

girl is in love with 2 guys which happen to be long lost brothers that have been seperated at birth. One sent to a rich, tycoon household. The other sent to some poor countryside family and has had to fight for his survival since young. Just when the relationship seems deadlocked, girl develops life treatening illness and eventually dies in the arms of the brother she loves.

So lets get back to my point. You think this kinda thing only in taiwan? think again. Mexico is famous of its scandalous Spanish Soap operas wildly popular in the US, Brazil and other Latin American countries of course. and its seems they've caught on with the idol pop group sucess equation. They've got it right down to the mandatory alphbetical name RBD.

heres how i found out about them. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glu1IbUEwGs
They are HUGE now. Check out the screaming in the video and the fans screamin the lyrics to the song. Not convinced they are huge then read this http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/RBD

gotta go back to muggin. Ciao~!

Pamela Oei's Biggest Fan. Part II.

2006-11-11T10:03:00.000-08:00

Its been exactly one year and 9 days since I last professed my love for Pam Oei to the world via this blog. For the kay poh ones.. you can go find the Dec 2nd 2005 post la hor. H'anyway...in the past month, i've watched Forbidden City and Tick Tick Boom both big big productions with stellar casts and spectacular sets and bloody expensive seats... but at the end of the day... its the Dim Sum Dollies that win my heart year after year. Not that i'm saying that Little Shop of Horrors din haf a stella cast and a spectacular set ok.. but hor as i mentioned before... i love these ladies so much, i'd pay good money just to watch them convert oxygen to carbon dioxide on stage!! And i would have been throughly entertained just watching them do just that !! Oh man i cant believe i almost didn't go catch it because its so horribly close to the dreaded exams but my honey-bunny h'annette woo tze may bought us tickets and the rest, as they say, is history.The singing gets better and better every year i must say and the songs in this musical are truly catchy. I think they made a wonderful decision to cast Dave Tan a.k.a Electrico frontman as the voice of Audrey II ( evil-greedy-talking-orchid). I loved the sexy rock numbers! Hossan Leong!! what can i say... sheer genius.. loved him in forbidden city also...Can't wait to catch his new show next year *grinz* And then hor... h'annette and I were sitting pretty far back because we bot our tickets so last minute... and i remember after the dollies did their opening number, this (hot)lady came out and sang..and i leaned over to annette and said " Who is she? She sings pretty well." and the both of us couldn't make out who she was but she knocked my socks off with her singing la.. i cant find my socks now but thats a different story.. so during the break, i whipped out my program to see who she was and then.....tadaa guess what?

* This author does not think it is a coincidence that her name is also Denise Tan ok!!* A certain Juliet Capulet once asked her Romeo -Whats in a name? Today i tell you, there is plenty you can tell from a name! for one, it pretty obvious that only wildly talented and artistic people with hefty set of lungs and a gift of a beautiful singing voice have the name Denise Tan written in their I.C.s HAH! and thats a FACT. *annette i know you are currently rolling you eyes and will probably yell at me for being shameless*

In my humblest opinion, the only downside to this musical is the fact that the Dollies take a rather "back-up" role.. I would have preferred more Selena Tan, Emma Yong and especially Pam Oei stage time.. oh the parking pontianak skit gets me everytime.. its so hilarious.. and the SIA girls part.. BUT WE WANT MORE DIM SUM DOLLIES leh...please??? We only get our Dollies dosage once a year so indulge us PLEASE?

So anyway.. I was thinking whether i should go like get their autographs after the show..but we didn;t la.. abit paisey.. 21 years old liao..acting all star struck and giggly.. but if i had gone to get their autographs..i'd probably like pitch them the idea of adding annette and I to the show next year... we could be the additional har kow, siu mai, xiao long bao or chee cheong fun...maybe..we could be the chopstick sisters?? eat dim sum need chopstick mah hor? Man thinking back its probably a good idea i din go and say Hi lah.. i might have lost it and hugged Pam or something..then she's gonna think i'm some psycho and barr me from all future shows.. or i may have said something extremely geeky to Denise Tan. I would go up to her and say.."Hey Denise, I'm the Denise.. i guess talent runs in the first and last names!!" and then totally embarrass myself.. Phhft i'm just so capable of something like that....

Bottom line. The show rocked. It has got my panties in a knot cause its so good. Go catch it if you can..it runs till the end of Nov I believe. Pam rocks too..in fact she rocks the most.. and if you go catch the show and get a chance to speak to her, tell her I LOOOooVE HER... in a totally normal, healthy, non-psycho kinda way of course. Thanks.

of clogs and kampong life

2006-11-11T09:20:00.000-08:00

Its Saturday. no wait its 1-friggin-am so its Sunday. Anyway what that means is that hell week is officially over. I screwed up the lab report, handed it in at 5:31 when it was due at 5:30!! and the presentation....wells we were in school till 430 AM (*gasps and sighs*) the day before the actual presentation. I had enough time to take a cab home, bathe, sleep for an hour then take a cab back to school for probably the most unprepared and terrible done presentation i've ever done, complete with eye rings and eye bags!! how terribly UNGLAM~! PHHFT!! hell with it la..at least we're over and done with it.

The daddy is back from Holland. I missed him and i'm glad he's back altho arh... he's proven once again that guys cannot be trusted with buying meaningful souvenirs! u-know-arh so many years liao, he gets to go the coolest places for business trips but he ALWAYS buys the wierdest things back. sigh. So when he calls to ask if we want anything, safer to decline LAH. Don't afterwards get your hopes up waiting for your gift and then get sorely disappointed. Like once mum requested for a nice silk scarf from europe i believe and he came back with some expensive scarf that looked like to was for some Grandma Wilma who lives up in the mountains.. it was absolutely hilarious to watch mum's awkward and unconvincing "Its bea..u..ti..ful..!" expression but still she only wears that scarf to totally dark places where nobody can see it. So anyway He goes to holland and decides to buy a miniature pair of clogs..until here it seems acceptable since clogs are some-what symbolic of the dutch..but then he buys this pair of porcelain ones that look like they had been made in China!! haiyo.. no offense to the chinese pple, i'm sure you guys have excellent craftsmanship but then you wanna buy clogs, buy one that are craved from woods or something la.. the small small one summore..sun buy and put where leh.. i give up lor.. it's currently sitting on the altar.. I guess Mother Mary's enjoyin it now.. *shrug*

And last week arh, before my dad came home.. my mum did the most classic thing you know..she forgot to order gas..then cook dinner so late we were all starvin..so she no choice..took out the gas cooker..the type we used for steamboat..but couldn't light it up.. because she didn't even put the gas in properly... luckily i was at home.. popped the gas in, locked it and VIOLA..fire.. to my mum's amazement and this was how she cooked dinner that night, KAMPONG STYLE!! dun play play arh

thank you.

2006-11-03T09:33:00.000-08:00

I'm tired.
I'm sleepy.
I'm spent.
I'm stressed.
I'm stretched.
I'm barely holding on.
I'm desperate.
I'm close to giving up.

I need reassurance, comfort, support, cheering, a listening ear and even a little humour.
I don't need you to tell me that i've put on weight again and i'm looking fatter than ever.
But for some reason you seem to think that i need you to let me know just how much weight i've put on.
And so you do tell me. I shrug it off and walk away. I pretend it doesn't matter to me a pathetic attempt to hold on to what dignity is left i guess.
What else can one do?

For some sick morbid reason i hope i die in my sleep tonight and then you'll regret forever that THAT was the last thing you said to me before i died - that i was FAT.

Dance and be merry.

2006-11-02T05:36:00.000-08:00

I CHALLENGE YOU. Whereever you are right now - the library, the lecture theatre, your grandmother's birthday dinner, let the video load and then hit play and whereever you are, drop whatevery you are doing are shake your bootay like the guy in the leather pants and jacket. I GUARANTEE you will feel SO LIBERATED. I know cause i tried it *grinZ* Apologies to everyone gawkin at the science library, I just needed to do it. Had to.

My name is Jose.

2006-11-02T05:08:00.000-08:00

Thursday. 2nd November.

November. How the hell did we get here? They say time files, I say time has just invented a new way of getting around and it must be one hell of an effective mode of transport because its definately much faster than bloody flyin' ! I apologise for the harsh language. I am too tired to watch my language at the moment. Spent. Nothing new really, life in NUS is like the dreadly monthly menstrual cycle -

1. Its gives you cramps
2. It makes you all pale and lathargic
3. It definately makes you moody
4. Its the same sequence of things every cycle.

Denise starts school feeling like THIS year she will do better than last year, she will be at every lecture on time, she will understand every lecture, she will complete every assignment in advance and she will start preparing for exams early. Nearing the end of semester, Denise is so tired is can barely make it to the bedroom when she comes home, therefore Denise is late for all morning lectures because she's so tired she can't wake up, Denise cannot understand most of her lectures and does not have the time to find a textbook and read it because she is too busy catching up on the 164,000 different assignments and lab reports she has due on the next day.

Yup. And here's my conspiracy theory : NUS is an alien institution put here on earth as an experiment to see how much sleepless-ness, mental fatigue and stress that twenty-something homo sapiens can take. This is the ONLY REASONABLE theory i could come up with to explain why year after year they have all kinds of "expensive" deadlines all fall on the same week, heck the same DAY! By expensive, i mean the 30-40% term papers, lab reports, presentations etc..

So today i sat through 3 hours of presentations by my module-mates from Plant physio. And as i the first group was getting ready to start, i was so nervous for them i could have puked. Oh man, theres no possible way i could tell you just how much i am dreading my turn next thurs (*PRAYER REQUEST !!!). At the point, i would much rather get dangled outside a window by michael jackson than do that presentation. I would much rather count the number of leaf blades there are at the padang!! i would much rather watch RAMBO movies till my eyes bled.. oh God help me!

Laughter definately one hell of a medicine

2006-10-19T07:04:00.000-07:00

if you love Mr Brown and Mr Miyagi. You'll love this. Do yourself a favour and watch it please :)

jack and karen

2006-10-17T08:47:00.000-07:00

As you requested :)

You'll never look at dance lessons the same way again.

The Donny and Marie show.

2006-10-13T23:49:00.000-07:00

Class 95 rawks.
Yes it does.
For some reason, listening to all the oldies-but-the goodies on Class 95 has hit me with some nostalgic wave and then i fell into the youtube abyss, searching for old mtvs. There is something very very compelling about matching outfits, poofy hair, coordinated dance moves and shimmering, blinding silver and gold sequinned dresses. The 70s and the 80s! People certainly dressed outrageously, but you can tell they had fun. With the cheesy music and silly dances, pple stood up and cheered and screamed and cried for their stars as the stars reciprocated by going all out in their performances. It was silly but HELL it was bloody entertaining and how i wish we had first hand experience of that. I wish i was there collapsing with excitement at a beatles concert or throwing my panties at elvis up on stage or swaying side to side coordinatedly to The Osmonds and Jackson 5. *sigh* i bet back then no one had to stay at home all weekend to work on lab reports, worry about mini projects and mull about which deadline was looming nearer.. Some days i feel like even though I'm getting a university education, I'm still wasting my life away. If i died tomorrow, i'd have spent the whole day before i died, researching the end products of energy metabolism during environmental hypoxia in fish!

Some rock and roll...

K now that you've enjoyed that, you're offically old like me.
Muhaha here's more..who needs Boyzone when you have the Osmonds

Now for some CHER... go guRL! uh huh!
*THIS IS A MUST WATCH* Don't watch the rest just watch THIS :)

OH i love it and i'm not ashamed!!! HEll YEAH

The best medicine.

2006-10-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

Yay. Sesame and Monika and now officially Will and Grace fans. Fantabulous! Everyone should watch Will and Grace, become fans and we'll rule the world together!! cheers and enjoy :)

This one's for sesame:

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This clip is called Water Bra. Need i say more?

"Did the boobs make you dumber?" LOL

Yeah. monika i din forget you.

Tragedy..when the feelings gone and you cant go on..

2006-09-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

Denise Tan Siew Hoong.
You need to toughen up. Thicken your skin and be prepared to make mistakes.

Thats what i tell myself everyday just to push myself. I am sucha chicken. I think its because my ego's so big i can't take the embarrassment or something. When i do something wrong or inappropriate even though unintentional, it just keeps playing in my head over and over again like some unending nightmare...OOoh my goodness i drive myself crazy.
And its like I'm 21 for goodness sake. If i'm not prepared to stick my neck out there how the hell am i ready to take on the adult working world.
Aw man sometimes i feel like i'm trapped in one of those tv shows about some awkward girl tryin to find herself in an all too crazy world. Man they should warn kids about growing up from a young age. Growing up is bad, evil and scary kids!! If you can help it, Don't...Grow...Up! Don't.

So the premise of this blog entry came from an encounter with a particularly scary female prof i have. She's a single, (more than) middle aged lady who will not hold back in voicing her utter disgust at every lil thing you do wrong! EVERYTHING. We have to do our own project planning for this module so we have to consult with her on what we plan to do.. and she's like.. DON'T DISTURB ME AT LUNCH TIME! ITS RUDE. I HATE STUDENTS TO DISTURN ME AT LUNCH TIME AND WHEN I WANNA GO HOME. and starts looking like some evil red eyed monster that'll eat you because you disturbed her lunch. And before you start to think i'm just another whiny sissy undergrad, EVEN THE GUYS ARE SCARED OF HER! for real!! the other day we wanted to try our luck and see if she's could see us since we were already in school and it was ard 12. So i asked the guys if it was a good idea.. and they all started shifting uncomfortably in their seats, voices lowered to a low cautionary tone.. "eh i think arh better not lah she really really hates people disturbing her at lunch.. really.. better wait till 2 la.. really man.."

Aaaaaanyway, we decided to make an appointment to see her this morning instead..and of all things, MY GRP MATE WAS LATE! BY 15 mins... my goodness.. it was like fear factor man sitting there waiting for him as the second hand of the clock ticked and ticked........... and yes there is a happy ending and nice lesson to be learnt..because although she was totally snide and sarcastic about us being late, she put that aside eventually to listen to what we had to say, she seemed genuinly interested in what we had to say and basically we came outta that meeting knowing what direction to take with the project which is good! and she chose my idea to expand on and thats good too!! knowing i made a valid observation and suggestion.. its a small affirmation that i'm on the right track so it was not that bad after all.........

And today i went to Bugis with the mother to get new jeans. I am telling you, if you a BIG girl like me and you need some one to tear down your self esteem and get the perfect lesson in thickening your skin, you shld totally go get you jeans from this auntie at bugis..man she tells you straight..."that one low rise one leh..you sure you can.. i think cannot la.. whao unless we get you big big size...arh you see you thighs wha... i think only our this jeans you can wear la...3 quarter i think cannot la.." SIGHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

AAaanyway, the secret to dealing with this big bad world, is surrounding yourself with happy things and people that love you and make you laugh.

Here's ending with Denise's pick of the week for funniest comeback line!!
My friend and I were talking about ABA (abcisic acid) for our plant physio report and we were getting confused and when he finally gave up trying to understand he said " haiya ABA i dun know much about but i know alot about ABBA.. the swedish band!" hilarious simply because he said it with a straight face. and followed with an ABBA medley.......

Mid Sem Breaking ME.

2006-09-25T10:44:00.000-07:00

hurrah ladies and gents. get on the tables and cheer because its taken NUS a long time BUT they finally realise that the definition of a week = 7 days, starting on monday and ending on a sunday. Yupp no more of that crap with it startin on saturday and ending on thurs. PHFFT.

So they give you a couple more days break and just to even things out, the lecturers simply give us a month's worth of extra stuff to do. SIMPLE.

And its wierd how the mind works. actually just how my mind works. I figured that since i have so many things to do, and i'm probably not gonna finish it all, i shall just not start on them at all. Ah-ha..EUREKA my friend EU-freakin-REKA! And so my body has once again gone into auto-pilot SLOTH mode. Every time i attempt some sort of mental or physical work, even the mere thought of perhaps doing real work, my mind numbs itself and i feel sleepy. Its a great defensive mechanism against doing actual work. really its great and effective too. I have so far accomplished nothing. HA! Yes allow me to bask in the pride of having no discipline nor self motivation what-so-ever.

Ho hum. No doing work has provided me with all the time in the world to get addicted to youtube. Fantastic i tell ya! Alice had her Wonderland, i have my youtub-ous adventure. Its breath-taking really the amount of utterly amusin crap they have in there.
Come come lets take a peak shall we?

First Up.. so you think you can dance! yupp watch this before the peeps at channel 5 try to sell you bad dancing on the stOooopid Dance Floor show...

OOooh and the all new Megan Mullally Show. I love Ellen really i do but i love Megan just as much!! oh call me FICKLE...

And yes. my favouritest du0 of them ALL - Will and Grace. YAY :)

2006-09-21T10:06:00.000-07:00

The Crocodiles are Crying.

2006-09-21T09:27:00.000-07:00

Endless visions fill my head – this man – as large as life
And instantly my heart mourns for his angels and his wife
Because the way I see Steve Irwin – just put everything aside
It comes back to his family – it comes back to his pride

His animals inclusive – Crikey – light the place with love!
Shine his star with everything he fought to rise above
The crazy-man of Khaki from the day he left the pouch
Living out his dream and in that classic ‘Stevo’ crouch

Exploding forth with character and redefining chic
It’s one thing to be honoured as a champion unique
It’s one thing to have microphones and spotlight cameras shoved
It’s another to be taken in and genuinely loved

But that was where he had it right – I guess he always knew
From his fathers’ modest reptile park and then Australia Zoo
We cringed at times and shook our heads – but true to natures call
There was something very Irwin in the make up of us all

Yes the more I care to think of it – the more he had it right
If you’re going to make a difference – make it big and make it bright!
Yes - he was a lunatic! Yes - he went head first!
But he made the world feel happy with his energetic burst

A world so large and loyal that it’s hard to comprehend
I doubt we truly count the warmth until life meets an end
To count it now I say a prayer with words of inspiration
May the spotlight shine forever on his dream for conservation

My daughter broke the news to me – my six year old in tears
It was like she’d just turned old enough to show her honest fears
I tried to make some sense of it but whilst her Dad was trying
His little girl explained it best…she said “The crocodiles are crying”

Their best mate’s up in heaven now – the crocs up there are smiling!
And as sure as flowers, poems and memories are piling
As sure as we’ll continue with the trademarks of his spiel
Of all the tributes worthy – he was rough…but he was real

As sure as ‘Crikey!’ fills the sky
I think we’ll miss ya Steve…goodbye
- RUPERT McCALL 2006.

Good bad and the UGLY.

2006-09-07T02:03:00.000-07:00

This week there are happy things,

Discernment and seeing the new comm being formed.
Commissioning with our Business Buddies, touching and sweet.
Passing my Final Theory Test (final-freakin-LY)
Getting my all 8 seasons of Will and Grace on DVD on eBay (yipee)
Lunches with Sesame.
Cheer-up cookies from my prayer buddy.
Guitar lesson with belle.
1st CG.

Then this week there are sad things,

The passing of a passionate animal lover, conservationist, father and personal inspiration to me.
Insensitive people being kinda offensive about His passing.
- maybe i'm being sensitive again, but really if you cant empathize with those of us that are experiencing the loss so strongly then shut up and let us mourn in what ever way we can ok please. We don't need snide remarks and scoffs abt us mourning over someone we didn't know personally. It may seem silly to you but it matters to me. and i'm one emotional person i know that, and i dun think its a bad thing that i feel so much for someone losing a husband, a son and a father even if i dun know them personally. If you having nothing nice to say about Him, please keep it to yourself or just don't say it to my face or dun expect me to respond to your utter-insentivity with and equal lack of courtesy.
Germaine Greer ! you should be so ashamed of yourself you bl**dy B**ch! I respect the fact that you have your own opinions but i sure as hell do not have an once of respect for you as a human being. Which decent human being goes around writing vicious articles about a man who's just passed away. Is there a need for such strong words? Your actions disgust me. Have you not a shred of human compassion within you? Dear Lord i'm am sorry but i cannot find it in myself to love and pray for someone or rather someTHING like that.

The lack of news and coverage abt it in Local News.
- selfish as it sounds, i think that i need closure. I think everyone that loved Steve needs closure. Can we please hear more about the full story, maybe even tributes...something..anything.
Me sensing myself starting to fall behind in school work and putting on more weight. (bleah)
No Ellen on TV today.
- They put GOLF instead of ellen..what the.... this girl needs her laughs!

Then this week we have wierd things,
the new Zoe tay Ad, on the front page of LIFE! today that says something like " The secret to my good skin, i always swallow." WTH................................................................................................
seriously who on earth thought it was appropriate to put something like that UP.......................

One last cry.

2006-09-04T07:58:00.000-07:00

i just had a good cry. I've been keeping the tears in all day since 4pm when i first heard of crocodile hunter - Steve Irwin's death. I wanted to cry in the tut room but i was with people i wasn't close to. I wanted to cry on the shuttle bus on the way to Arts but i knew pple would stare. I wanted to cry at FCG but i didn't want everybody to be affected. I needed to cry. When i got home, i saw my momma and i cried like a baby in her arms. I feel better now. i think.

Why am i so affected? I dunno i guess partly because he is someone i look up to, all he's done for animal conservation. I dreamt of the day i could maybe tackle a crocodile with Him (corny!!). His love and passion for the most misunderstood animals. His zest for life and love for his family. Maybe its because i've seen almost every episode of his television documentaries and on some level i feel like i know him personally..wierd.. but it happens with public figures doesn't it? Maybe its because i feel he has so much more to give to this world, so much life left to live..i mean what he contributes to our society on a daily basis is so much more important than what i offer everyday, why Him not me? And i feel so deeply for his wife who has to bring up the 2 young children on her own now.. I think of his australian zoo and his staff and friends and i cant help but imagine how lost and shattered they must feel now. More importantly i think i cry because i wonder - on the day i die, would i have played my part in contributing to the welfare of others like he did? I see the tributes to Him and wonder if the world would mourn like they are mourning Him when its my turn. Morbid. I know. But the lesson is so clear - you'd better live and love all you can because nobody knows where or when the Lord will call us home.

Such stuff is harder to handle when it comes all of a sudden. And now i look back and i'm so glad i rushed down to Singapore Zoo last sem when i heard he was coming to Singapore. People thought i was silly but imagine the regret i would be having now if i didnt.

I love you Steve. Crikey! Crocs Rock!

dun wanna be fugly anymore

2006-08-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

Today I'm reminded why I haven't been to orchard shopping on a Saturday for a lOOoog time. The reason - the crowd.
As I made my way from Orchard Mrt to Taka, I took the underpass way thru wisma.. you know that long stretch of shops and that big cylindrical aquarium that pops out in the middle of nowhere. Yuppers i was making my way thru that narrow narrow walkway, late and rushing. And i really think that the town planners or whatever you call the people that decide which direction large masses of people should head towards, i think they should consider some kind of road marking system there. We could have one lane called the "plenty-of-time-to-kill" lane. Primarily for people shopping alone with plenty of time, generally no shopping direction or goal, walking at pace that will allow them to fully appreciate window displays and then decide if it would be worth their while to slowly glide into the shop with both hands firmly tucked into their pants pockets. This lane should be placed nearest to the shops and their respective display windows. Next, we have a "we-r-so-darn-late" express lane for people like moi where really need to walk fast, pay no attention to the shops and not be blocked by pockets of people gliding along slowly with their hands firmly tucked into their pant pockets. And the author fully notes that these people totally deserve their saturday afternoon leisure stroll in the most populated part of singapore but she just wishes that they would not form a defence line and block the entire road while gliding! it is not polite and frankly rather irritating for those of us with a need for speed! And lastly we'll need the temporary stop zone, for people who are smsing, people with prams waiting for the "plenty of time to kill" people who have answered the call of the window display, people who really like to stop in the middle of VERY crowded place in the middle of streams of people, just to talk, gossip, act like a statues or look like there ended up somewhere they didn't plan to be at like "hmm i though i supposed to meet ah-huat at kopi tiam why come i now at orchard..hmmm bo ko leng leh" yup there are such strange bewildered people just stationary at certain areas in Orchard. They DO exist!

Hhhh'anyway i finally found my darling at Zara.. i hesitated stepping in.. i knew i shouldn't have. especially when i'm currently at my "i'm so fugly" mood. The place was crawling with trendy tai tais, trendy and cash rich japanese tourists and size 2 stick figures browsing thru the racks. Urgh. i feel so outta place at places like this i don;t belonging and its simply hard to be at a place where you know that once you spot something you like, its probably

(a) too small (no double digit sizes)
(b) too expensive (multiple digits on price tags)
(c) all of the above

Denise didn;t buy much today only some stuff needed to kick start my " i'm-so-darn-serious-abt-losing-weight" regime. Btw if you see me, please tell me to

(a) Not drink any can drinks or syrup drinks! only H-2-O!
(b) keeping snacking to a minimum. only allowed when battling going into comatose mode during uninspiring lectures
(c) Drink more water! more more more!

Thanks kew and goods nite.

Rock On

2006-08-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

first week of school came and went.
Did i survive? barely. I'm so pooped i havent had the energy to do so many things and yeah it totally Sucks. Bleah.

Welcome Tea was a blast. I enjoyed it. Energy was high, people were happy. I enjoyed it and i hope you did tOo. FRESH MEN.. come back ok.. dun run away.. or I'll HUNT YA down AND... give you a HUG... ah HA... a BIG SWEATY HUG... muahhahahha. I spent so much time on that silly video and i'm glad pple responded well to it. Thanks all for your affrimations.. if this lifesciences thing doesnt work out.. i may just have found myself a backup plan.

Speaking of lifesciences, I was pretty apprehensive about the new sem mainly because i had decided to concentrate in Bio when the rest of the world is conc in BMS. so i thought i was gonna pretty much be alone for my modules. But i figured i'm friggin a legal adult so i should just suck it up and take it as a WOoman! anyway... i'm in Uni.. nobody takes modules just so they can be with their friends anymore right.. i mean you take your friends in consideration but it'd be real silly if everyone insists on taking the same modules and end up shortchanging each other la right. And so after much self cajoling.. i decided to go ahead and take whatever modules gave me the most decent timetable even if it meant no company. *pat on the back for myself*

I was pretty freaked out la but i kept praying silently on the cab ride to school. The Lord does hear every sincere prayer and he made sure i had company for every module i went for even though i thought i had none. New friends, potential good friends.. old friends.. some how i found a familar face at every lecture. *big grins* So i truly Thank Him for the bottom of my heart. And i decided to share this with all y'all because next time you feel apprehensive about anything, please P.U.S.H - pray until something happens :) Satisfaction Guaranteed.

K at least i got to see LL and Ziwei at Developmental Bio lect... but its so strange not seeing KK and MJ... but they'll be back sOOn.. YAY hopeful with lotsa souveniers!! k enough for boring school news... Pui pui pui... more on ROCKSTAR: SUPERNOVA...

YEAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! *smashes guitar* *bangs head* *jumps of stage*

Have you watched "Walk the Line"? You know Johnny Cash?? Heard "Ring of fire"? Nvm.. watch this:

And then watch this:

And now that you're blood's pumping and you're all ready to go crazy and rock, WATCH THIS:

YAY. i love her. I'm in love with her. She's so crazy. Singapore Idol contestants should watch this and weep in shame.. *evil laugh*

This one tOO Oh my goodness..Blows my mind

Majulah Singapura

2006-08-09T13:36:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why its bloody 4:30am and i'm still awake. And then when i'm desperately muggin for exams, i collapse at 11pm. Hmmph. I think textbooks and notes release a hypnotic sleep-inducing scent that make even the most hardworking, caffeine addicted junkie fall asleep at first whiff. Bah. lets not waste impt bloggin space on such meaningless chit chat....today is NATIONAL DAY! theres this song my frens from Henry park taught me it goes a lil something like this:

The 9th of August is a holiday.

We don't have to go to school,

we all can play!

I'm dressed in my best only for TODAY!

Hip Hip Hurray its our national day!

So we sing,

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to Singapore

Happy Birthday to YOU.

Yes for some reason my friend sang it to me once when we were in Crescent and it just got stuck in my head all these YEARS. which brings me to another great mystery - why issit i can't recall something i spent an hour memorizing just the night before for exams?? Arh well. Back to one of my favourite Holidays - National Day.

I love the fireworks. I love the parade. I love the slight of entire HDB blocks with the Singapore flags proudly displayed outside their windows. I love how the cars have the cute lil flag decals. I love how some taxis even have mini flags attached to the car window. I love how when i go for supper after the parade i see people decked out in red and white at the hawker centre. I absolutely am filled with child-like anticipation and excitement when it come to the parade. And even though i can recite to you by heart, the entire and exact sequence of the parade, i will still go to the loo before the parade so i don't miss a thing. I run to the balcony when i hear the roaring of the fighter jets. I stand during the national anthem and tear when they show video montages of the past. I wave at the Tv when the President does his round on the land rover ard the stadium. I get so excited for the soldier the President stops to talk to. I hoot and whistle at the sight the ladies in the marching contigent. I gawk in amazement at how neat and perfectly synchronised the marching is. I OOgle at the navy men with their wrinkle-free pants and gleeming white shoes. And i sing at the top of my lungs with true and sincere patriotism when they start playing what i like to call the " REAL national day songs" - Stand up for Singapore, Count on me Singapore, One people One Nation, Home, Muneru Valiba..etc. And i wait at the steps of Marina Square at 6 o clock on tuesdae, just to see a 10 minute showcase of fireworks at 9 pm, and then get herded to the mrt station together with the other 500 people that come to do the same thing :) Singaporeans do not always express how we feel. In fact we keep to ourselves too much. But that makes it especially heart warming to see people show love and enthusiam for their country on August 9th every year. Sigh. I think now i know why i cant sleep. I'm just too darn proud to be Singaporean on this very special National Day.

The Lakehouse Decoded

2006-08-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

This will probably only help those who've watched the movie and kinda sorta understood it :)

Time after time

2006-07-28T10:28:00.000-07:00

I love Cyndi Lauper.
I love Rock.
I love watching singing competitions where the contestants can actually sing.

This my friends, is a kick ass performance from Rockstar Supernova (read previous post). You can only pull off an acoustic version of any song if you can truly sing and this girl truly can sing. Enjoy:

hello frm outer space

2006-07-21T07:34:00.000-07:00

Me. Adult.

Adult. 21. Me. Yes!

The party's long over. The presents have been long presented. The champagne, vodka and cognac popped and drunk. The birthday girl is sober but still slightly high from all the love, joy and surprises.
Thank you thank you and thank you for all who came, partied and conquered. Thank you also to those who could not come but sent their love and kisses anyhow.

Apologies apologies to all you who bother to read my ramblings. I know this post is long long over due.

The babe (allow me to stroke my own ego) has been busy planning modules. Yes. This marks the third year of my tumultuous relationship with CORS. Basically we have a love-hate relationship. I hate it and it loves to mess with my already unsound mind. Anyhow, Praise The Lord~! i managed to put together a half decent timetable. Lets all cross our fingers in unison all over the world and hope that the bid points DO NOT sky rocket.

You know hor. All ya'all sitting at home on a wednesday night. Looking for rockin' music, real talented people singing their lungs out for their shot at stardom, i'm talking about real raw talent.. please do yourself a favour and quit watching the jokers on Singapore idol and tune in to StarWorld on channel 18 and catch Rockstar Supernova. Seriously. The contestants (i'm talking about those who can actually sing on StarWorld) take songs by all kinds of singers EVEN Cyndi Lauper and Rawk it SOoo hard i get motion sickness. YEAH....*jumps of the sofa and strums imaginary guitar* In a totally unrelated note, you know what i dream of, i dream (fairy god mother are you listenin?) of a husband who can sing and on our wedding night, he will surprise me by taking the mic and seranading me in front of all the guests, at which i will start bawling my eyes out and have mascara all over my face and i start looking like Marilyn Manson. Better still, i will have a ROCK theme wedding and everyone will come dressed like Marilyn Manson and my husband-to-be will seranade me with the hard rock version of Bon Jovi's I'll be there for you! yea...must take this all down.

People who hang out with me often enough will know that i ALWAYS seem to attract/bump into really wierd people. For example, i met an 60 yr old auntie with a david beckham mohawk once and taxi drivers that always tell me weird stuff and most recently was this lady on the train who really seemed not to understand the whole concept of "personal space". I came into the train and walked over to the opp door area and was leaning on the glass thingy right..minding my own business..checking out my own reflection and being horrified...then she comes in at the next stop..walks over to my corner (PERSONAL SPACE!) and leans in so close i thought she was gonna hug me!! then she reaches her arm over... like less than AN INCH away from my BOOBS to hold the hand rail!! I couldn;t.. I dare not breathe.. luckily i got off at the next stop i mean if she lost her balance and fell on me, she would have choked me to DEATH! why didn't i react?? I din know how to react!! its not everyday some stranger leans in so close KAY...

ha.

2006-07-14T08:56:00.000-07:00

LOST the musical. speechless.

japanese, chocs and lotsa lurve.

2006-07-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

i was supposed to blog about this last night but i was just too darn pOoped so i am doing this now. H'anyway... Last night saw the reunion of the 3 musketeers! Yeah-uh! Silly me forgot to bring my handphone and it only further reinforced the fact FACT that i absolutely cannot function normally without Wilson. OMG. Kay i digress.. So we met at City Hall and yes the world felt a lil more...WHOLE, COMPLETE, and RIGHT now that we're reunited. So off we trod to the duria..i mean esplanade to have some Japanese at Ichiban Boshi. The service there wasn't too good really. and we got simple unedible wasibi - it was crusty and dry and chunky. When we asked for replacement, they weren't exactly apologetic but the food was quite OK.

After my tempura fix, it was time to satisfy the chocolate craving so it was Haagen Daz to the rescue. The fix this time was a gi-normous yummilicious chocolate fondue.

It was expensive but Isobel so kindly offered to treat and yours truly was truly a happy and satisfied girl.
As i the night wasn't perfect enough, i received my first birthday present.

No the present wasn;t Joanne kay it was the cow. The cutest, softest lil toy cow called buttermilk! AWwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

To top it all off, I get KISSES. Real ones not the ones by Hersheys.

The only reason why i look so Pervy in this one, is because i really enjoyed it :P

Denise's list.

2006-07-11T11:28:00.000-07:00

ok. I am doing this only because people keep asking AND these people are starting to sound rather desperate. Kays i geddit you wanna get me something i may not need but really do want and i'm touched. so to make things easier, i'm gonna provide a list. But first i must make it absolutestly clear that i will throughly enjoy and hold dear to my heart anything and everything you so wish to bestow upon me as a birthday gift. I promise.

I kinda need new ear phones to plug into my laptop. the ones i have now are
1. Not mine
2. not fitting properly into my ears
3. so tattered and torn you'd think my ears had teeth.

The following things are stuff that i want but never got down to getting them myself. They are kinda expensive which is why i really didn't want to list em in the first place. The thing is i dun mind at all if you get me vouchers to help pay for some of the stuff. Here goes:

a. Crumpler Bag
b. Crumpler Laptop Case
c. Adidas Jacket ( VOUCHERS!!) i already have my heart set on a particular jacket :)
d. A nice plastic water bottle. Pls hor No powerpuff girl kindergarden one hor. You shld know what i'm talking about.
e. Crocs
f. A nice sports brand bag.

enough? i can;t go on really.
The secret to mking me happy. Bring yourself to the party and give me a big hug and kiss!

The Cabs are outta get us!

2006-07-07T08:50:00.000-07:00

finally went shopping with the mother today. yesh. much needed mother-daughter bonding and retail therapy. Not to mention, i've finally figured out the secret to having yourself a satisfying day of shopping. I'm talking--
1. getting the clothes you like in your size
2. finding something you've been looking for going for 50% cheaper
3. good service
4. minimal hunting for the things you set out to buy
5. getting a mercedes cab at the taxi Q
When you find yourself, feet aching, back breaking and fingertips purple and numb from carrying shopping bags AND YET still smiling as you show off your spoils THEN, LADIES and GENTS you had yourself level 5, totally satisfying and effective retail therapy session!!
oh yes yes the secret: *whispers* say a lil prayer before you head out. of course it works better if you're sincere and truly in dire need off retail release.

My mum's a strange lady. Not convinced? let me show you Exhibit A : ME! ok now that you're convinced, lets move on. As we were waiting at the taxi stand, feeling obviously exhausted from the day of intensive shopping, she came up with some conspiracy theory all by herself. I was already kinda sian that not many empty cabs were coming in, and she went on and on mumbling about how these cab drivers are very smart, they PURPOSELY alight the passengers and drive off without picking up new ones because they wanna wait around for people to book taxis and that way they can earn i-dunno-how much more la. " You see you see, at first he put the yellow light THEN when he reach, he put ON CALL! tsk tsk tsk tsk so smart ah." *denise garners whatever strength is left in her and stares at mum* Kay i really dunno if shes right. But i thought it'd be rather dumb for the cabbies to purposely not pick up passengers and go wait for booking right? Remember teacher always say: Bird in hand better than bird in bush!" AHA! so i really doubt her conspiracy theory holds. You may say i like to let people have the benefit of the doubt. Why rain on your own parade right? Anyway one paranoid in the family is enough. So when we got on the cab, i told my mum " mum! slide down your seat and hide!!! you never know who's watching us !! We got a cab without booking!! how can it be!?!? *gasp* must be a goverment experiment *gasp* gasp*gasp* My mother proceeded to roll her eyes " VERY FUNNY! ah you. SIAO! sit properly la!" Ah yes. my mother so misses my nonsense.

At Last.

2006-07-02T12:42:00.000-07:00

If you like acapella, then you're definitely definitely gonna enjoy this group of guys. Chanced upon a clip of them performing on some talent show called "America's Got Talent". Apparently its some new show produced by Simon Cowell. Simon, if you're listening, fer gudness sake get yerself a better name! geez. AnyhOo, the group is called At Last. As in At Last, a buncha people who look good and can really sing! Some of the other songs they do are not that impressive but I love their rendition of Ain't no Sunshine. Its fresh, its tight and its unique. 2 words - I LIKE. enjoy.

If you'd like to see em perform on the show (shorter version), OR if you like seeing Brandy( the singer NOT the alcoholic beverage) gasping exaggeratingly OR if you miss David Hasselhoff from the nights of Baywatch - with Pam Anderson, Baywatch - Post Pam Anderson, Baywatch the reunion movie, Baywatch Nights and Baywatch Hawaii and YES who can forget, Knight Rider (show with talking car) please watch this:
ps. you can see better how cute the guys are on this one tOo *wink* Jacq....*nudge*

HELP WANTED

2006-07-02T08:39:00.000-07:00

tell me if you eat durian please.
reply at the chatbox.
please.
impt party desicions to be made.

Idle fever.

2006-06-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

The laptop's still stuck in the gadget hospital. I'm still suffering from gadget-withdrawal plus competing with the rest of the family to use the desktop is really not fun. The thing is, ever since i've gotten my own laptop, the rest of them have kinda worked out a unspoken unwritten computer usage time table. So now that i'm back to compete for computer time, well lets just say that we sometimes have to remind ourselves that "thou shalt not kill" is a very important comandment! So i have a very small window of opportunity to gain internet time, when the 3 of them are occupied at the same time - dad's watching world cup while the sis is *cough*pretendin*cough* i mean doing homework and while the mother is preparing for bed. This window starts 10-ish and lasts till someone comes and grumbles.

Now that you realise how ardous it has been for me to come online and blog, you should realise how really blessed you are to be reading this entry! *grinZ* ok i geddit stop the vomit-inducing self praise....

Moving on, caught singapore idol today, the wildcard round. I realised a couple of things
1. Daniel Ong is quite redundant as a host isn't he? Is he there to make sure that the constestants are under constant adult supervision and not left alone in the red room? Is he there because Gurmit Singh has bad time management and cannot split his tv time properly between being on stage and with the other contestants? Don't they learn from other people's mistakes? American Idol had 2 hosts in the season1 tOo and i'm sure they figured one overly-styled-bleached-hair-metrosexual guy was enough to carry the show. Hence we have ONE ryan seacrest! point proven.

2. As much as i love Jacintha as a singer, i just cannot make sense of some of her comments. The contestant sings, Dick Lee says something then Florence usually concurs then Jacintha mumbles some one liner which has the audience silenced because they have no idea if it was a praise then the audience will just abruptly break into cheer as if to say "whatever la just cheer to make people believe it was a good thing!" Strange............

3. Ken Lim has become some wise sage of pop-idolism. He's so cocky, most of the time just plain rude and the stinging remarks come out of his stony face in such a matter-of-a-factly manner that it is as though he really believes that he knows the music industry inside and out. My question is, Who died and made him Singapore Idol GURU? huh? who? WhOoo????

I love my country. I have pride in my nation. I do. But erm... lets be adults and face this issue like grown ups ok? our contestants have nothing compared to the ones in american idol. I mean, i think they would never even make it through the audition round. Sigh. Jia You la Singapore.. lets make this our goal..to produce better singers. IT is ATTAINABLe... just like Singapore's world cup goal..2010... *muffled laughter*

Ellen Ellen Ellen

2006-06-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

The Ellen Show is finally coming to Singapore *screams*
Finally some quality television!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh i am the happiest girl in Singapore right now :)

Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen Ellen
3rd July 3rd July 3rd July 3rd July 3rd July 3rd July 3rd July 3rd
5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm 5pm Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Bring out the popcorn!

2006-06-26T20:38:00.000-07:00

Since i've been back from Bintan with da ladies, i've been gorging myself. Seriously. So Monika and i decided to eat something healthy or seemingly healthy and so we went back to school to eat discounted Subway and of course get my lap top repaired. The original plan was to head over to bukit timah hill after that to do some exercise but then we got sidetracked by popcorns, ice lemon tea and a really cheesy romantic comedy - Just my luck. In the words of my very irritated mother upon hearing about our change of plans " HUH You supposed to be CLIMBING become RECLINING arh tsk Haiyo!" But i must say it was a pretty good 2 hours of mindless humour in fact our dearest Monika was laughing so damn loudly that people were turning and laughing at her laughing...Geez.. i have gotta be careful who i bring to public places nowadays.

Jurong Point never ever ever screen their movies on time so after 15 minutes of trailers, here a list of movies that i absolutely have to catch:

yeah-uh.

SYSTEM FAILURE.

2006-06-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

H'okay guys heres the scoop. When i returned from FOC, my lap top crashed on me and I couldn't fix it cause I went to Bintan. Now i'm back, but my social calendar is SO FULL that i can probably only go down to get it fixed on monday which means i'm probably not gonna be online very often. This totally sucks cause the house comp just got repaired only and its missing tons of programs plus the key board feels funny. I MISS MY LAP TOP. Now that i'm competing with 3 other people for use of this desktop, i'm gonna have to save my storytelling for another day. Ciao~!

Stand up!

2006-06-10T11:31:00.000-07:00

this guy is really damn funny. he sings real well and plays the guitar real swell, but the lyrics of his songs are...urm..lets just say interesting. Many people like " A little bit special" but i prefer " why mummy left us" so here it is for your entertainment! enjoy :)

-- A Little Bit Special --

-- Why Mummy Left Us --

2006-06-05T01:17:00.000-07:00

so many people been asking me whats my all time favourite movie since the last post. And so, here are the clips to my favourite movie for all time. I must have watched both Sister Act 1 and 2 like 50 times each. I can sing all the songs, i can quote all the lines i can tell you exactly whad happens next but i can watch it again today and still laugh until i cry. WHOOPI goldberg is a GENIUS and how she can look so normal without eye brows still astounds me. OH youtube RAWKS.

i know its taking a while to load but its so worth it ok :)just press pause till the thing loads finish then watch then whole clip at one go.

oh i'm smiling so hard while watching these videos i think my face is cramping up!

Ah BENG to the rescue

2006-06-03T07:38:00.000-07:00

ok guess who i managed to drag with me out to dinner today. ok not exactly out but we went to rail mall to get some roti john and prata. yes my dearest ah beng. he has been a hermit for the past week because the lift at his block broke down and he is simply too lazy to climb 8 flights of stairs. "Think of the poor HDB flat people when their lift breaks down" that was my feeble attempt to trick the self proclaimed Human-Sloth into coming outta his house and then today, my lift broke down!! and then something about having someone share the bad luck made it worth his while to come out of his bat cave to have dinner with me. "wah we all damn suay hor maybe should try like those tv show walk over the pot of fire." *Denise stares*

We started talking about movies. Movie addicts thats what we both are..suckers for good movies. I told him i was getting sick and tired of the whole da vinci code saga.

You know what i think singaporeans lack? I think we lack sensitivity and in the case of the people who decided it would be okay to paste a poster for the davinci code movie with the image of Jesus on it, ON THE FLOOR for people to step on at orchard mrt.. for those people who decided that doing that would be okay, i think that they not only lacked sensitivity, they LACK BRAINS, COMMON SENSE and they lacked simple UNDERSTANDING. Would you paste a picture of your grandma, the president or even Mr Lee Kuan Yew on the floor for the hordes of people to step on even if it were for promotional purposes? You can argue all you want, you may even think we are over-reacting but i ask you, is that the only way you can go about promoting the movie?? cant you just paste it on the walls just so that we wouldn't even have the chance to over react?? Make better use of the grey matter in between your ears and then nobody will have to feel offended however sensitive they are.

The catholics aren't protesting in the streets with banners and posters and burning pictures of Dan Brown, not because we are cowards, not because we do not stand up for our faith. It is because we recognise that if people watch it as fiction, then really its ok. It is FICTION. In fact, after you watch the movie and read the book, QUESTION what you read! You live in Singapore! most of you are educated enough to realise the simple fact that just because there is enough controvesy surrounding it DOES NOT MEAN it is absolutely irrefutable!!! PLEASE LA i'm not asking you to take my side, I'm pleading for you to be fair, to make an educated decision, to question, to give us a chance to explain, I am asking you not to be naive enough to believe that one man and one book holds all the truth. If you think that just because you read the book, you have enough "FACTS" to discredit MY FAITH and the entire foundation it is built upon, then its only a reflection of how shallow you are as a human being and i feel so sorry for you.

I dont mean to be a bitch and blow up here, but i've been holding it in for a while and it irritates me when people watch it solely because of the controversy, not bothering to educate themselves first before buying all that dan brown has to say. Better still, talk about it in front of me, remarking aloud that the stuff in the show seems very believable, maybe its true, FORGET that I am catholic and that it is terribly insulting that you have made a conclusion about my entire religion being a LIE all based upon a 2hr MOVIE! I'm gonna watch Herbie reloaded and CONCLUDE THAT ALL CARS CAN TALK!!!! TSK.

At this point, i'm so pissed off i can hardly finish my roti john and Ah-beng is just laughing because he's seen me blow up so many times. " I think you should go be a politician like that Sylvia Lim man you so passionate when you bitch sia" we continue talking about things that are ABSOLUTELY LAUGHABLE like that silly NUS business school ad!! I think it is also rather insulting, because it seems to insinuate that a school is only credible when ang mohs think highly of it! even if that was not their wish to portray, the advert really sucks la, no creativity not nearly as impressive as the SMU ads, i must say they've really managed to boost their image with a very sucessful advertising and promotional campaign. NUS... why like that???

At this point, this cab passes by with the advert for Dog food.. guess what flavour - UNAGI AND SEAWEED. and ah beng remarks SO LOUDLY "wah dog like sushi MEH?" that the guys on the tables beside us start laughing tOo. *paisey*

then we head to videoezy for the movie and cold storage for the snacks. We saw my best friend's wedding on the shelf and ah-beng remarked that we should make a similar pact to marry each other if we;re still single by the time we are 40 i told him i'd be seriously short changing myself but agreed anyway :) LOL.

I love movie nights. I love laughing out loud so that the whole condo knows i'm watching comedy anyway, soon they will have no qualms about letting me know when someone scores a goal during the world cup. We are an interactive neighbourhood!!

retreating because i don't seem to be advancing

2006-06-02T08:03:00.000-07:00

just returned from annual retreat. It was absolutely free-ing to see all our efforts in planning slowly play out. The fellowship, renewed bonds, strengthened relationships, recharged spirits, new revelations, the crazy videos, the mad sing-a-louds, the silly games, the action songs, the girls invading the guy's toilet, the cold showers, sudden 'black-outs', the struggle to stay awake to write warm fuzzies, the over-feeding of pius, the walks, the dances, the amazement over the mashed potato conversions, the conversations with God... i guess all these made all our efforts in planning worth it. This group of people made it the most special retreat for me personally. Its only the second time i cried while sharing, overwhelmed with the spirit. It was strange, i never saw it coming, but when the feeling came, there was no stopping it.. i couldn't go on sharing.. and it wasn't a sadness kind of cry.. it was a joyful kind of cry, like for that 2 minutes i was basking in His infinite, unconditional love, a feeling so complex, so pure and so good that my body did not know how to react except to let the tears flow like some kind of release from all that love that was stiring me from the inside. There were certain things i've been praying for before this retreat and in these 3 days, he answered all of my greatest wants. They are a tad bit too personal to share here but we can always talk about it next CG kay :)

heres our ode to the movies, the one above is our davinci code tribute and our charlie's angels tribute- if you can even bring yourself to call it that!

Note to BEN-- those videos better not make it to youtube arh or else blood will be shed!!!!!!!

truth is truth

2006-05-26T01:37:00.000-07:00

if you plan to watch the Da vinci code movie... or well you have too much time on your hands please check this out

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html

photo updates

2006-05-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

Ok i'm sorry i haven't been updating the blog or posting the pictures.. here they come
First up - the booze.

next up - the feastin'

and of course - the birthdays

obviously there are many many many more photos of birthdays and feastin and booze that havent made it here but i'm too sleepy already...

2006-05-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

so i forgot how good she was till i watched this. oh and its so funny how her face is stuck in this wierd capture as its loading. LoL.

like a bird baby! like a bird.

2006-05-03T09:33:00.000-07:00

so the air smells fresher, the water tastes sweeter, mum's food oh-so-much yummier. Yes. I. am. Free. Free from the bonds of notes and textbooks. Free drudgery of webcasts and tutorials. Free from the heavy chains of lectures and practicals. FREE from torments of lab reports and silly projects. Free to sleep till 2pm and not feel guilty. Free to perch myself on the leather sofa and scan all 80 channels to find something that may or may not interest me..point being that i can just sit there and watch whatever-the-hell is on. YEAH baby! Every TV addicts' dream and I'm livin' it. * hops around the toadstool*

Do your hear that?

The shops and sales they beckon. The movies and DVD they call my name! The pool the beach the park the zoo. AH! here i come mi darlins...............................................

upsets and downsets.

2006-04-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

so. my last paper is on wed. 3rd may. and dunch you dare gloat. Dunch yew dare ya rub salt in my already gapping, pus-spewing, infected wound. I am not being melodramatic. I am upset. UPSET that i can't go for this ---> PAMdemonium-Pam Oei in Concert. Dang it lar. F....lamin F....ishballs.... Lets all just collectively cross our fingers and our toes and hope (for my sake) that she'll have another one next year, not around exam period. Or.. (pam if you're listening,) let me know w...h..ay in advance when it'll be held then i'll plan my modules accordingly. Yes that is how much i wanna be at that concert!

H'anyway. more on things that upset me. Parents who are desperate to live their unfufilled dreams through their kids. If you caught Oprah, well if you didn't, you should. Yes, they were doing some special on Sports Parents. Parents who train their kids from a really young age to be professional atheletes. The first guy is training his 9 year old son for the NFLs. 9 year old. The boy has stair trainings on Mondays, Chiropracter appt on Tuesdays, Field trainings on Wed, Thurs and Fridays, Matches on Saturdays and more stair trainings on Sundays. YES! THE KID IS NINE!!!! Don't get me wrong, I know he loves his kid, and I know every parent has hopes and dreams and aspirations for their children and I know also that unless I become a parent myself I will not understand how that parent feels. But dammit lor!!! I've been a kid, I'm someone's child and I have FRIGGIN' common sense, enough common sense to realise that this kind of lifestyle is not gonna be healthy for ANY kid. The moment the kid was born, he bought baby jerseys for him, football pacifiers and made him watch football and you dare tell me that being a NFL player is THE KID'S DREAM??? Hullo! is it just me or is it too obvious that the dream is yours! not His!! If football is all you talk about, what other dreams can the kid have???? being a lawn mower???? You know what really ticked me off was when he said that He is doing all this to equip His son with skills and qualities that will help him in the future and if his son should decide that football is not what he wants, he will not be upset and they'll just move on. This fella needs a friggin' reality check man. Even Oprah told him " I don't believe you," Geez...un-freaking-believable. He wouldn't be upset??? who da hell does he think he's kiddin'??? He even has a 10 second rule for his son. If he falls and hurts himself and wants to cry, he has exactly 10 seconds to deal with that and after that he carries on playing. I just can't imagine what the kid is going through.I mean he may truly be enjoying playing football. BUT what if he's not? what if he's doing it to please his dad? what if he leaves in fear of disappointing his father every day? What happens when his son grows up and learns that there are other beautiful things in this world, things that he wished he had been exposed to when he was younger like art, music, nature and science. What if his son had greater things in his destiny, greater than being a pro footballer? Why do parents deny their children of a childhood? I guess i'll never understand till i become a parent but it makes me so sad to watch a story like this. SO sad and SO damn GLAD that i have my parents!!! SO GLAD that i wanna get grab everybody at home and hold hands and dance and twirl around the house like a bunch of euphoric elves in Santa's factory on the day after christmas.

Kellie pickler leaving american idol upsets me too. but i'll get over it.

OH YAH. and people who sit on the outer seat on the bus but refuse to get up in order for the person sitting on the inside to get off the bus. THIS IS A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT: please please please for the sake of all things good gentle and kind on this earth, just get up, move to the side and allow the person to get of with ease. 1. the faster the person gets off, the faster we all get to reach home. 2. if there is ample room to get out, there is a minimal chance of getting slapped/whipped on the face by the person's huge bag 3. lesser chance of getting the person's ass stuck up against your face also. 4. lesser chance of getting stepped on your toes as well. How hard can it be to stand up or at the very least do it when you see that the person has a big bag or is carrying alot of stuff. The other day, yours truly has a huge bag with lap top charger and pull over and textbook and notes PLUS lap top in hand! when i told the girl sitting beside me to excuse me, she so generously tilted her knees to a roughly 45 degree angle and just looked at me, as if expecting me to pull some nozzle and start to deflate myself till i was 2 dimensional enough to slip pass her. Sigh. look at me! without backpac already I'm sufficiently 3 dimensional to warrent more than a 45 degree turn of the knees right??? what you want me to do? hop over you like a 2000m hurdler??? take out a pole and start doing a high jump? spontaneously liquify myself and flow outta the bus?? better still fold myself into a small paper crane and get passed down from one passenger to another until i reach the door where i will unfold myself and get off the bus. sigh.

taxi drivers - you gotta love em'

2006-04-17T12:04:00.000-07:00

Easter Saturday was unlike any other this year.
It was the first time i didn't attend Vigil mass with the parents and the sis.
It was the first time ( in a long while) that i didn't attend it at SMOTA.
It was the first time i spent the entire afternoon in school, churning out information on the gene sequence of enzymes that yield good blast alignment hits at the aerogenome database, discussing the reactions it catalyses, the quality of the orthologs it yielded and in depth analysis of the 'interesting' relationships we inferred about the taxonomical lineages of the organisms we found on neighBORING branches of its phylogenetic tree.

So i was supposed to meet the rest of the scooby gang at 7 at coronation. Had to be home by 6 to bathe and change and therefore supposed to leave school by 5. Supposed - being the keyword to my previous statement, i ended up leaving school at 540 even after rushing so hard for the report i felt like i was about to throw up after i was done. Anyway it meant that i had to cab home and so i prayed that a cab may pass by and one did!

Got into the cab and the uncle was massively waving his hands in huge circular motions in order to drive the cigarette smoke outta the open window. He turned the air conditioner on and only then could i stop turning blue from holding my breath and resume normal breathing functions that did not threaten to charcoal my lungs.

Then uncle began asking why so many students were waving for cabs in NUS when there was a long line of cabs at NUH. He said that he drove off thinking there were no customers, lit his cigarette and barely had 2 puffs before he saw me. "Everytime i tot no people one, can smoke then blow 2 time then aiyah got customer then have to throw so waste one arh!" My instantaneous reply:" Uncle like that good lah then you wun smoke too much, smoking bad for health plus pick customer can earm money mah!" Uncle chuckled and said " wah uncle first time got customer so care about my healthy or not leh" It was at that moment, where our cab-ride friendship blossomed!! and for the rest of the journey, Uncle shared with me about his son graduating from NTU, about my future about His future, about CPF, about Gah-ment (government), about condos and private property, about the ford factory and speaking french... and i recalled my soci lecturer saying that the best sociologists are taxi drivers heh! Actually our cab-ride bonding involved mainly Uncle telling me his stance about you-know important issues and me just agreeing with equal gusto. i think uncle was happy he found someone who would just listen and agree with him and i was just happy i could just sit and listening without having to be the one to talk. Soon we reached Dairy Farm Estate and we had to wait while my sis brought money down to pay for the cab fare, meanwhile Uncle continued about how my condo was "not bad, spacey not cram like the new one hor if at night neber pull the curtain arh, WHA can see everything your neighbour doing arh! terible one that one!!" then the lift went up to that 4th floor and i said " ok coming down already my sister" to which uncle said" wha 4 floor goot! not high not low! good arh!" then he began counting down and kinda yelled happy new year! when the lift reached the basement. (Yes HE DID!)
My sis was throughly amused when the uncle wound down the window to say bye and remarked that we both looked the same. We said bye and as i walked off, i had an urge to turn around and saw him lighting up a new cigarette! " UNCLE!!!! why you...!?!?" and Uncle's reply to the exasperated look on my face was priceless " Aiya i Need CUSTOMER!"

I'm the one who wants to be with you...

2006-04-10T06:49:00.000-07:00

been enjoying rides home with my dad.
I'd buy him sugar cane and chesnut drink.
We'd change the radio station to Class 95 and turn up the volume to Hotel California or Mr Big's To Be With You. He will tap on the steering wheel as i proceed to butcher the song and mimic guitar rifts. It gets interesting when we stop at the traffic light cause I ain gonna stop just because someone was staring.. i'd continue my front seat act with full power and gusto and once this guy driving a van actually gave me a thumbs UP. i have fans. no kiddin.

He will make a way.

2006-04-06T19:56:00.000-07:00

The weeks before final exams are always the worse of the worse. The pressure makes you do silly things, you blow up at the minut-est of things, you take it out on your family and friends, the baggage just seem to so heavy you can't ignore you can't have fun anymore. I mean god forbid you have fun cause then you feel irresponsible and guilty. Every year i think school cannot get any worse, then every year NUS being the kind of university that seeks to improve and challenge itself constantly, proves me totally wrong and pulls a ever bigger stunt.. 3CAs, 2 projects and a 60% lab report in 2 weeks, just before study week. i could go on and on seriously about how my life sucks but i won't. Because frankly when you take a step back and look at the bigger picture, you'll soon realise how many women around the world would give anything for a life like mine. I mean i could say it makes me appreciate my life better.. ok so maybe appreciate would not be the right word because it implies fondness. BUt lets just put it this way, it propels me to suck it up and take it like a (wo)man! After this new found enlightenment, equipped with newly discovered inner strength, i attend mass on sunday and for the recessional hymn, we sing "You are mine". Whenever i feel so so so low it so happens that we sing "you are mine" and i wanna break down and cry so badly but i hold it back and allow the tears to well up in my eyes so that my visions blurs and i can't see anything around me anymore but i know the lyrics so well and i continue to sing but it no longer sounds like the voice is coming from me. It becomes such a soothing and comforting voice that my troubles lose their grip upon my shoulders. Then i really understand. If i were to get pass this seemingly unbearable period, it is of no strength of my own, but of the ultimate strength i draw from him.

God will make a way

Where there seems to be no way

He works in ways we cannot see

He will make a way for me

He will be my guide

Hold me closely to His side

With love and strength for each new day

He will make a way

10 i wishes.

2006-03-17T09:47:00.000-08:00

I wish I were a writer or a poet perhaps.
I wish that beautiful verses spewed out of my brains faster than I could capture it with a pen and paper. Then I’d be writing about love and hope and peace and joy and families and courage and faith and all things good. They’ll call me idealistic, a foolish optimist blinded by my ignorance. But I wouldn’t mind.

I wish my life were television show that I could write and direct and rewind and undo every time things didn’t go the way I like, or if I needed to see what would happen if I made some other choice. If only I could add and take out characters as I pleased, change the settings and situation if I got bored. If only I could live my life as a bystander.

I wish I could have some kind of guarantee that things will turn out fine. That everything is going to turn out exactly as it’s supposed to be. Then I’d really know that I’ve been worrying for nothing.

I wish I could read people’s minds. Then I’ll know how to act and the right words to say. I’d know who to keep beside me and who to shun.

I wish there were a perfect solution to every problem, labeled and categorized alphabetically so that I may carry around wherever I went.

I wish there were no such thing as insecurities and self doubt. They are truly crippling.

I wish I knew Oprah personally.

I wish I were a spice girl back when they were huge.

I wish that proper toilet facilities were invented before the kampong days so that I can wish that I lived back in the kampong days.

getting antsy.

2006-03-02T16:17:00.000-08:00

back at the library.
8:17am.

I like the sun shining into my eye. slightly uncomfortable and harmful to my retina but nice.
Then there are ants.
I'm not particularly fond of ants.
I don't like em.
I think they like me cause they're always around in the wierdest places.

Once they decided it would be kinda cool to hang out in my lap top.
I left it on my table to charge over night and then next morning when i booted up my lappie, there were ants coming outta everywhere. I got SO freaked out i almost plunged my lappie into the bathtub. Not advisable of course, considering its 2000 buckeroos down the tub. BUT i wonder what those ants were thinking when they decided that my overpriced piece of machinery would be an ideal hangout for them and EVEN shifted in immediately. In the middle of the friggin night. They must be one decisive species huh. Like how they are always nodding to each other, maybe they just are CONSTANTLY making up their minds. So like antA is walking and AntB is like :" shall we move into that Fujitsu place?" and AntA makes up his mind immediately even though moving is like a BIG lifetime desicion and says :"YEAH!"*nod* and so they became the lil old ants that lived in a lap top.
Not very smart if you ask me. I mean no ANT insurance company is gonna insure you if you're living in a lap top! think of the probability of getting electrocuted or getting burnt to death and shocking your ant appliances... i'm not sure if Ants have that Safety Mark thing on their appliances..but its always better to be safe than sorry. So maybe i should help the lil guys out and make some kinda sign that warns them on the dangers of living in a highly overpriced piece of machinery. Of course then some of those outspoken, rebel ants will still ignore my caution and come then i'll have to like carry out drastic actions to keep them away (squashing my fat thumb on em). And then they will stick like white elephant (or whatever animal of choice) cutouts around my laptop cause it costs so much but i wouldn't let em use it.
Damn sometimes tough love is so necessary.
Now if only i spoke and wrote ants.
Maybe if i can find an ant translator.

charmed no more :(

2006-02-19T21:02:00.000-08:00

and so i find myself back at the science library since 730 in the morning on what is supposed to be the first day of the mid sem break. I wonder why they don't just call it... "4-random-days-without-structured-lessons-but-our-students-still-remain-drowning-in-work" or"4-random-days-so that-we-can-justify-purposely-putting-all-deadlines-back-to-back" or "4-days-disguised-as-breathers-but-is-actually-to-ensure-our-students-don't-die-before-we-complete-our-torture-seqence"

the library smells the same from when we left off during study break last sem. the toilets however smell strangely foul considering the library is rather empty. The chocolates, green tea and coffee find their way back to the make-shift *cough* totally illegal pantry area we created behind the blinds of our usual level 6 table. The view's the same. well wat do ya expect, new swanky expensive buildings to POP outta no where??? Oh wait i see..University Hall Oooh fergeddit.

i'm sad about a few things lately. Not big things. small things. Like how i can't spend time at home buggin my mum instead of muggin. Or how Charmed is ending after 8 seasons... (still haven't recovered from Buffy, The nanny, Mad about You, F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Ally Mcbeal) sob after 8 seasons you get attached to the characters, no matter how made-up they are. its what the telly does.. it makes you believe in a whole new place (think wisteria), whole new lives (think OC), whole new friends (think F.R.I.E.N.D.S duh), whole new careers ( think ally mcbeal or buffy) and even whole new planets (think star trek). And its sad.. i liked charmed. It was good. Well at least most of their seasons were. Read somewhere that its actually the longest running series starring all femal leadS. notice its leadS..cause Murder She Wrote takes the award for femal LEAD. Dang. nobody likes their fairytales to end. Why do you think we mourned with Brad and Jen broke up?

oh shucks... i hope Allyssa Milano does something else soon. something good.
meanwhile i shall check out 9 lives on central tonight. wasn;t impressed with first epi..hoped its improved. gtg back to muggin..tata

Blog coverage on appending war.

2006-02-08T08:07:00.000-08:00

And so its begun. To put it bluntly, the situation's really bad and although i try my best to muster whatever optimism and courage i have within me, i realise that there's no turning back because it's too late. In approximately 5 days, lollipops, overpriced flowers and chocolates, repulsive heart shaped ornaments of all kinds - metallic, furry, plastic, attached to an even more replusive and disproportionate teddy bear, vomit inducing cliches and tacky poems that actually rhyme WILL take over the world we know. The war is waging and it seems that Hallmark is the only party left standing waist deep in consumer dollars. *one minute silence*

HOokay before you start labelling me a cold-hearted envious skeptical single B*tch, let me defend myself. Its not that i absolutely HATE Valentine's Day or V day as we all well versed in hip-lingo may know it as. Now, i don't mind like a simple gesture, something sweet. Sure! afterall why go and be a spoilspot? celebrate go ahead.. but seriously no need to overdo anything right. LOOK. if it takes a "god-knows-if-its-really-a-day-of romance" to jolt you into action to declare your love or do something extravagant for your lady, THEN MAYBE your relationship needs a check up huh? And i cannot for the life of me fathom why people think its more romantic, or some sort of a 'good luck' to get married on vday. Well UNLESS you think that celebrating your unique love for each other together with millions of people around the world doing and saying exactly the same things, and squashed in the SAME R.O.M, using the same expressways to get there is extra romantic. Nothing says I LOVE YOU more than having to rush through your vows so that the next couple can come in hoR. Lets see... i can so picture it.. ok ah-kow you on anot? ok. ah-huay you leh? ok. ONS Arh can go liao..outside to sign go go go.. NEXT! if you ask me, its just so its easier to remember anniversary LAH right *nudge* and GIRLS if you think about it, you get shortchanged because usually you'd get 1 diamond for your anniversary and a necklace for V day. Now that its lumped together, you'd probably only get either one. UNLESS your husband is the generous and automatic type but WHO ARE WE KIDDING!?! must i remind you we live in Singapore, where casually bringing up the possibility of going to apply for HDB is generally accepted as a decent proposal..*SCOFF*
O wells, personally i think the tacky lines really get me the MOST. seriously its unbelievable what some people actually say/write. Oh you complete me (damn you Jerry Mcguire!) Oh you are the piece of my heart i misplaced..Oh i find myself in you..erm honey if you cannot express your love to me in simple, sincere words then i suggest you find yourself in someone else KAY...and copying movie lines hor...*shakes head* that one MAJOR DEMERIT points. Whats worse you ask? quoting N'sync songs... *OUCH*

So i'm really an ol' fashioned, simplistic, realistic b*tch.. i ask for sincerity and spontaniety..and one last point.. THE TWO OF YOU! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE...with evil ploys to set me up.. ditch those foul thoughts NOW.. anyway your other victim will never agree.. i dare bet on it..

beginning silly sequence in 5..4..3..2..

2006-02-04T08:45:00.000-08:00

i realise i haven't been updating my blog for a long time.
its taking longer for the me to get 'inspired' enough to get off my lazy ass and write that next post.
i look back at the older enteries and realise something quite terrible.
i think i've become unfunny.
i really do.
an ol friend came up to me that day and said:
"you've changed. you're not as jolly, happening and crazy as before"
i realise i really am not.
i get so down easily.
get so worked up and demoralised.
get so serious. so affected. so touche.
what is wrong with me?
i need to laugh. i really need to laugh. i need to do silly things that don't make much sense except to make the people around me happy. i need to let go. is that what you're trying to teach me?
was it necessary that i fell so badly?
LET GO AND LET GOD. AMEN.

10 Things i realised today, that i LOVE

2006-01-20T08:40:00.000-08:00

1. I love listening to good music on the bus. Especially if its a long journey. Makes me feel like i'm in a MTV or something. At night, you get to watch the lights go by and hear Bon Jovi slamming on his guitar.... PERFECT.

2. I love the smell of lemons. Lemons in tea. Lemons with tea. Not Lemon air freshener. Only fresh lemons.

3. After catching Viva Las Vegas on the Turner Classic Movies channel on cable just now, i realise that there ain't no hiding it no more.. i am completely and utterly, head over heels, crazy gaga in love with Elvis. When he pouts he lips, dances like he broke his leg, sings those sentimental love songs or does silly "there's ants in my pants" dances the silly-ier he looks the more i can't help but GUSH. AH! there! I SAID IT.

4. I Lurve having mass in school. It just shows that when people are willing to welcome Him, it can be a touching experience anytime and anywhere. I mean you can have 300 people having mass together in a GRAND church but IF everyone is just going through the routine, not letting go and prasing him from the heart then its just another mass. Whenever we have masses on Fridays, its people who gave up partying and relaxing on fridays, at 6,giving up time with family, with books,with the internet and CHOOSING to be in His presence. L.O.V.E.L.Y

5. I love smelly food. I love bitter yucky food. yup bitter gourd, smelly tofu, brocolli, durian.. smellier better..YUMS

6. I love GUYS who can sing and dance and not look like a complete GOOF.

7. I love people who inspire me to be a better person. Whether knowingly or not, they show you that you have to continually better yourself so that one day, MAYBE you can have their courage, strength, wisdom or love for others.

8. I love the musky smell of really old buildings. Its kinda an old, wet..wierd smell that probably would sound really gross if i were to try to describe it, but i just love it.

9. I love watching kids that are still innocent, sincere and adorable. I think kids are losing their innocence. They talk back, they yell at their maids, they disrespect their grandmas, they go to phonics classes and speech and drama classes, arts classes and advance mathematics classes they can even correct you if you mispronounce their names. But they cant't just sit quiet and smile at the world around. They cannot laugh at themselves. They refuse accept that somethings, like LOVE are always silly and abstract. They do everything they are expected to, but nothing their hearts tell them to.

10. I love being able to love.

do u hear me?

2006-01-16T08:26:00.000-08:00

the moment i got here, the words just wun come out. Not really that i got nothin to blog about, more like i don't know where to start.

isn't it interesting that most people don't think much of stress, pressure and unattainable expectations unless it they are the ones suffering. Only then does it become something everyone should stop what they are doing and pay attention to.

Is it fair for a prata shop to refuse to sell 'kosong'(plain) pratas? i mean they are THERE. in fact putting the egg in is an extra step. people who ask for kosong pratas actually get turned away. its egg or nothin. The owner does have the right to sell whatever he wants though. heck he can sell ONLY avocado-bak kwa prata if he wants.

how is it human possible to hate someone cause you love them? you wouldn't give a damn if you didn't love. but if you love, you should be able to forgive, overlook, be patient?

How does one learn not to care? not caring is easier-only if you have the guts to face what results from not caring. not caring can also easily become total numbness, which is good if you consider the no more pain part but you do also lose the joy and the love.

why to people enjoying starting disagreements but always lack the guts to see the fight through? i mean ah-bengs make use their fists more than their heads but at least they act. they defend what they believe to be important. most of the time its their egos they defend. but they defend it. i get extremely irritated when people pick fights by purposely uttering some snide,sacarstic remark. i mean its only about 2 notch louder than your usual voice and all you can do is hope the person hears it and has enough brain to realise its them you're trying to get to. i think, either you maintain composure and confront the person with as much niceness you can manage OR you confront. actually theres really no need to be rude.Don't do it the corward's way otherwise you are really no different.

why do ants eat everything? appear everywhere? check each other out so often and appear and disappear all of a sudden?

BIG TWOs

2006-01-15T01:45:00.000-08:00

Belated Photos from:

I cant really believe that we're celebrating the BIG 21s. Its kinda scary while exciting. Luckily, we're doing it together which means that we can party together, get drunk together, hangover together and do it again together!! plus, getting old together means discount booking at the Old Folks Home :)

I love photo montages. They capture everything. The colours, the excitement, the flood of emotions that hit when you look at em. If i could, i would wanna make a giant montgage of All the people, things, Tv show, movies,food,animals etc that i love.. it would be HUGE. I would look at it and feel so blessed and satisfied.

New textbook for drinking 1101E

Dearest brother Sun,

2006-01-13T05:18:00.000-08:00

Hi. I realised we havent seen each other for a really long time. I'm sorry. I'm was so glad i got to see you again this morning. I couldn't stop smiling the whole day.I had gotten used to not seeing you and its made me so down. I know i've been spending too much time with that rain-fella and neglected you, but its really not my fault, why didn't you visit? Hanging out with rain hasn't been fun at all, i really missed you. I miss the swimming, the cycling, the tanning we used to do.Rain isn't a outdoors kind of person, so whenever i'm with him, we end up staying at home alot. Why did you stay away for so long huh? did we do something to upset you? Are you upset that we invented sunglasses and transition lenses to avoid direct contact with you, or are you upset that we have sun block to bounce you off? i know i know you're just upset that theres a korean superstar called rain right? tsk haiyO... you must remember that you had your glory days tOo.. SUN yanzi?? Sun Yat Sen??? so Brudder... next time don't like that kay.. i got the sniffles for you

UPDATES

2006-01-07T04:24:00.000-08:00

here i am. fresh from my battle with the monster we call CORS. My battle wounds still sting but FEAR NOT, I WILL HEAL. Other then pulling my hair out in front of the computer, i've been spring cleaning, dog-sitting, ecp-ing and braces wearing.
My mum is rEally glad that she raised me so big and strong and FULLY utilised my muscles during spring cleaning. Lift the sofa, lift the bed, life the tables, carry newspapers.. climb here climb there..in case you didn't know, my mum's kinda..erm.. vertically challenged and so she made good use of my height (although not much) too. Spring cleaning went on from monday till thursday.

on wednesday, i became dog-sitter for a day because my aunt's flight got delayed. After sitting children, houses, fishes, plants and now dogs, i have reached a whole NEW level of sitting-ability. The dogs were so cute lah and just happy to see familiar faces after being stuck in the pet hotel for weeks. Its just so amusing to hear my mum scolding the dogs instead ahhaha :) it kinda freaked my dad though because she started nagging the dogs..."i told you all not to dirty the place! see lah" "who are you scolding?" "Bo bo and JJ lah" *dad looks puzzled, shakes head and walks away* smart move dad! stay away... hahahah looks like the motherly instinct in her is just too strong. When she went out to the back stairs to get the clothes, Bobo made a dash for the stairs like a prisoner trying to escape from Changi and then i heard..." BOBOoooooooooo NoOOOoooo COooome BACkkkkkkk...wHOooops...AHhhhhh..Stop runniiing YOU Arh you silly dog..." and then seeing her flustered face from chasing him was priceless! apparrently when she started chasing him, the dog thought she was playing so he started running faster and wagging his tail...
On thursday night, mum made what she called muffins but they were flat and outta shape and looked more like banana cake humiliated by being forced into muffin cups, forced to live a life of shame as lowly wannabe pseudomuffins. Those poor things...
Friday went east coast cycling, got caught in the rain, got drenched and over exposed! think white t-shirt and pink sports bra... *yikes* later in the eveing, i finally got my braces done...don't thinl i'll ever smile again.. i look.. Eeeeee and so... looking forward to seeing you all in school yeah... ciao~!

Random PIGs

2006-01-02T07:56:00.000-08:00

This was my breakfast on Christmas morn.
Pancakes (shaped like christmas tree!)
Fresh Peaches.
Maple Syrup.

Chrissy Present i really wanted. Got it after much intensive hinting. But you should really check out the duet by Josh Groban and Sarah McLachlan (Angel)

One really shouldn;t do your nails after drinking. Unless of course you want black nails with smiley faces on it.

Ice wine is yummy. Yummier when you have it with designer chocolate. *drools*

holidays 101

2006-01-02T07:40:00.000-08:00

Holidays are only well spent,

When they are spent doing things that make you Happy:),

With the people that matter,

For the one Lord that makes everything possible.

Who ask you so vain!

2005-12-30T04:51:00.000-08:00

so its more bad news for the Tan family this morning.
Don't wanna talk about it. Sigh
Mum insists we should still go for thanksgiving mass. nothing like Mum to keep your faith in check i guess. She says despite it all, we have many many things to give thanks for and after pondering about it, i guess she's undeniably right.
Just came back from dental. With all the damn metal in my mouth, i feel like c3po! maybe i should diamond studd the metal in my mouth..then i could be one of those rappers on MTV.. i just saw the other day.. their mouth full of bling bling sia.. I also extracted 2 teeth. Pain is just about setting in. Now i wonder if i would've been happier having crooked teeth the rest of my life. How come when i say i'm having braces done, people actually ask me WHY!?!? hmm..lets see.. can't be because i love how metal feel rubbing against my cheeks right..Maybe maybe i like getting ULCERS..no..maybe i just love the PAIN!! TSK.... strange people i know lor.... WHY???? CAUSE MY TEETH NOT STRAIGHT LAH... haiya vain lor..still have to ask..tsk

Thank You and you and you

2005-12-28T05:13:00.000-08:00

Many many thanks to the people who called, sms-ed and visited. I'm fine really, because death is a eventual thing and my faith tells me that there is nothing to fear about death. So although we mourn, we rejoice at the same time that my aunt is home with the Lord and that we are in your thoughts and prayers.

The mood has been a lil more sombre than usual at home but we're helping each other through it all. My dad's on leave and so my mum has "oh-so-conviniently" started to place the Robinson, Metro and *insert every other major shopping center in Singapore* SALES brochures all over the house. My dad however has adopted Zen way of life, by pretending to meditate (blocking out all external noise) each time my mum begins a sentence with *insert any major shopping center in Singapore*. And yes in case you've always wondered why i'm sucha goofball, please kindly take a look at exhibit A --- MY PARENTS!

I spent the morning hunting for my Budak Pantai CD and found it in my Dad's Cd player. Heh guess my love for the Arts is starting to rub of on him :) GREAT! Now thats he's getting more and more interested, i can bring him for more of such performances and being the loving Dad that he is, HE WILL PAY for the TIX!!! *evil laugh* of course, i'll get to spend more time with Him mah then he'll stop complaining that i always splurge on my mum.

The teeth are really beginning to hurt. Who knew that rubber bands could inflict so much pain? oh man now i have no choice but to learn to swallow the food i'm eating without much chewing... I think thats kinda unhealthy you know.. bah!! the price to pay for straight teeth... ok so if you all wanna dine with me arh..make sure there is soup, pasta, tofu, stewed veggie or jelly on the menu OR a blender lah then i can blend everything and DRINK!

And... school's reopening soon and CORS is back to haunt all of us at NUS..stay strong my peeps STAY STRONG!

I wish i had faith like yours

2005-12-27T09:56:00.000-08:00

My aunt passed away on christmas day.
Stomach cancer i believe.
Her faith is truly unwavering and inspiring.
She refused treatment. She was not afraid of death.
She was looking forward to reunite with the Father.
She prayed only that He wouldn't let her suffer too much.
He granted it, probably in recognition of her strong faith.
She went, in her sleep, after staying with each of her kids for a few months each.
Christmas Day, He came and took her with Him, back home.

To the people i love: I'm so sorry.

2005-12-23T22:53:00.000-08:00

Denise is feeling sorta confused this christmas season. hence she has once again decided to talk about herself in the third person. It has probably been the busiest holiday month, i am out almost every day and enjoying myself surely. But as i sat at marina, looking at the tom yam soup boil i suddenly felt very very tired. Not just sleepy because i had eaten too much but really tired. Its a kind of fatigue that made me uninterested in getting presents and planning celebrations. yes i would like to think that its because i understood the true meaning of christmas and therefore placed less emphasis on such stuff. But for some reason it didn't feel that way. When i hear priest talk about understanding what christmas truely means, i feel empty... if i was in the right mindset, i should have felt excitement and joy instead of empitiness as i hear them talk about it right? i really dunno... on one hand i feel like i'm closer to God then i've ever been and then on the other hand i look around and see people with that joy that i am now missing... am i doing something wrong? am i thinking too much? am i doing too much but failing to be quiet and hear Him speak to me? I may have been joyful about christmas in the past for the wrong reasons but at least i was joyful. I love making the people around me happy, which i why i loved christmas and birthdays where i could make them stuff and be happy from seeing them happy... but for some reason, i've become so tired... too tired to make the people i love happy? that sounds ridiculous and it frightens me.. what i'm becoming. Too busy to love.

You won't believe this!!!!

2005-12-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

And so i return from retreat. wiser but oh so pOoped. after managing to drag my gigantous bag all the way home, i realise, i din bring KEY!! well done denise! simply brilliant!! and in the words of shirley, maaarvellous! Thank God my parent were on their way home so i sat outside the house trying hard not to look like i was going to break into my own house... then things got interesting... stomach ache sia...so i prayed.. and distracted myself with the radiO... haiya ok tired liao...

it ain over till its over.

2005-12-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

Today was just wanna those days, where you had something really cool planned but you were just too pooped to go thru with plan but you were too guilty to cancel plan so then you decide to stick with it cause after-all it was a good plan AND THEN... *deep breath* the other party calls while you were still mid way between LalaLand and the real world to reschedule because something shitty popped up.. so then you fall blissfully back into your bed, nestle back into the 56 pillows you have, wonder why you never suffocated yourself in your sleep before, grin in contentment (guilt free) and thank God for his marvellous planning skills.
Yup long story short, slept in late today..woke up at 1130 which really isn't bad at all considering its the holidays and my record is 2pm. yeah must have been that DIS-gusting mugging period while i had to wake at 7 to get to library at 8... Eeeee pui pui pui i am supposed to forget forget that Dark period.. pui pui pui CHOY!
First thing i saw this morning, my red..no wait purple.. no actually its my supposed to be purple but under the light looks red hair.. i cant decide if i like it.. its... Different. Bumped into someone i knew but havent met in a while.. first thing he said- " OMG, is that Denise Tan with girly pink hair?" NUMBER ONE!! its NOT PINK... its supposed to be purple but looks red under the sun!! oh but we were indoors so its supposed to be PURPLE.. PINK??? tsk.. i would've smacked him or body slammed him but being the peace and harmony advocate i am, i decided just to stare at him like there were jets of fire shooting outta my eyes... " hey pea brain, its not pink lah you colur-blind rodent and its most definately not girly!" this guy being a guy *roll eyes* just didn't know trouble when it shot fire from its eyes actually went on to say " its definately girly.. all you need is a skirt and a short one perferably" At this point, i had a Incredible Hulk moment and rage took over.. i blanked out and the next thing i knew, there were blood on my hands.. and i couldn't find him anywhere.. o well i'm sure the hospital will take good care of him... mOOooving on...
i think my friend-radar is wonky... i keep getting these vibes but the signals are abit Off leh.. not as accurate as they used to be..like i just felt like someone dear to me was feeling down but we had a talk and she seems fine.. then someone else i that i thought was fine had a breakdown on the phone with me.. damn.. *shakes friend-radar* does this come with a warrenty? anyway maybe i've just become clueless... i don't like that i wanna know if my pals are in need of a moral booster..tell ya guys what.. since the system will be down for the time being, if you're feeling
(a)upset
(b)angry with me
(c)happy
(d)disappointed
(e) another other complex human emotion
please let me know kay cause i wouldn't have a clue if you didn't.
And last update on this entry... i'm in love with this Rob Thomas song. He sang it live during AMA..B.E.A utifULL but the real reason why i love it because it reminds me a very special song. its freaky how similar the lyrics are and its BeautiFULL!!

Pamela Oei's Biggest Fan. really.

2005-12-02T08:59:00.000-08:00

OH mai Gudness... Denise is feeling so on top of the world and blessed at the moment she cant help but start talking about herself in the third person again. Where oh where do i begin to tell thy story..
THURSDAE:
The mum, the sis and i took a bus to JB for some *screams* KICK ASS RETAIL THERAPY yeah man i'm truly in love with shopping at truly Asia... they never let me down... ok ok here got picture of my SpOiLS--->
Thats 8 tops fer about 120 sing..oh whao so exciting lor when we ran outta cash i started signing using my visa mini oh yah got 10% discount somemore at factory outlet... i was SuGar MaMma fer a day eh i tell you arh signing fer clothers is truly addictive k.. you'll get a high, a tremendous RUSH... must contrOL arh... remember girls: "with great visa capabilities come great responsibility" PLUS my dad came to join us later and we had the YUMMILICIOUS-iest Indonesian food... NUS (If you're listening, please arrange fer a helicopter to air lift me to all my lectures, tuts and practs next sem cause i'm pretty certain i wun be able to fit the doors at this rate of fine dining)

FRIDAY
MOre excitement todae as i went for my first consultation at the dentist because i'm gonna get my braces done! yep clampin up my mouth with metal wires is probably the only way to keep me away from the FoOd *slurp* AniHOo.. the dentist is SUPER.. friendly and most importantly he shares my sense of humour.. Oh yeah people who can appreciate my type of humour are few and far between, a breed of our own, we should be sealed for freshness and kept encrusted with precious stones while people of foreign lands come and pay tribute to us :)

After dental i went down to meet my cousin and her bf (Jo and Wayne) to catch "Oi Sleeping Beauty". In case you didn't already know, i'm a HUGE supporter of the local threatre scene now especially after catching Dim Sum Dollies, I'm officially HOOkED... i cannot live without the crazy but bloody hilarious antics of Selena Tan, Pamela Oei, Hossan Leong, Chua En Lai... i could go on and on lah... but bottom line, i seriously SaLute, HOmat, Kow Tow to these people.. I think they are truly talented, very very good at what they do despite the lack of support for their art..i think they are severly under-credited and under-appreciated.. I must admit though that i preferred Dim Sum.. because Sleeping Beauty is scripted such that the kids will enjoy lor BUT BUT but...still cow ass funny funny FUNNY! Note to Pamela Oei... if you're reading this and i have no idea why on earth you would be, but just in case you are, i LOVE YA i really DO... i think you're the funniest B*tch in Singapore seriously... Pam really rawks my socks.. just looking at her makes me laugh... she could just stand on stage and convert oxygen into carbon dioxide and i would love her all the same!!!
Whee i love a good laugh... who wouldn't??
AND as if this isnt enough excitement, my darlin dearest friend Percy (really the only person able to surprise me with a gift) decided to splurge on this good ol pal and bot me a guitar as a belated gift... a GUITAR... a friggin GUITAR outside my house gave my mum a mini myocardinal infarction (heart attack).. and get this.. ITS A BLUE GUITAR... blue.. blue.. how funky, outrageous, oTT and SO very very ME... I love ya PERCY!!! ok i'm so giddy with excitement now i better go before i faint or something

manual or auto???

2005-11-30T06:33:00.000-08:00

And so its begun... my ONEness with this house i live in. Yep when people get their holidays they cant wait to get out while I prefer to cultivate a closer, more personal relationship with this wonderful 2 storey condo unit i live in... I am a self professed BUM, NUA-er... i will happily spend my days at home induldging in this complicated love triangle affair with the tv, the bed and the computer... wait i think thats a love SQUARE?!?! anyHOo.... went down to BBDC (Bukit Batok Driving Centre) to get registered as a "member" a 84 bucks membership hOkay... its funny how they have these lil posters stuck all over the place that says " I will greet and serve you with a smile :) " yep complete with the smiley!! i mean i know we are moving into the whole good service thing but when is the GAHment gonna realise that good service is most parts sincerity... honeys... good service dun equal LIP service... whats the use of plastering these messages all over the place? huh?huh?... i mean dun get me wrong the people dere are generally nice... but its obvious that they've been doing and saying the same things all day... and in order to sound "chirpier" i guess they go into this sing song mode... "AreYewTaKingMaNuaLoRAuto (no breaks in between what-so-ever)" Me--- *look blur* Orh auto.... " okyewkipdisanddengobriefingroom1whichisbehindthatbigpillaandafterbriefingusebacdiz
samenumbertowait"
(ok you keep this and go to the briefing room 1 which is behind that big pillar and after briefing use back this same number to wait) Me--- *thinks to myself* i wonder if she'll turn blue in the face and collapse...DAMMIt i knew i shouldve learnt CPR... hmm..
BOTTOMLINE: i am warning all ye living in the west CODE RED for all those living in bukit batok and bukit gombak... I, Denise Tan am about to get behind the wheel (of death) so RUN while you still can...muahahahh.
Back to the good service thing... i realise that most waiters and salepeople are really trying but it really seems very forced sometimes... oh yeah i geddit we are a CULtured society... chey...

My Sugar, Daddy!

2005-11-29T08:41:00.000-08:00

My lao pa is 53.. Oh you know dads we just realli din know whad to get him so we brought him out fer BIG SEAFOOD DINNER... and the star of the night was his cake... *AHEM* CHOCOLATE TRUFFLES DURIAN CAKE... need i say more?

Project F.R.E.E.D.O.M : 101

2005-11-29T07:16:00.000-08:00

Location: The Asian Kitchen. City Link Mall. First Meal after Freedom had been attained!!! Whao Yummalums!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and GOot Service TOo.Fried Rice. 2 different La Mians. 12 Xiao Long Baos. Oh mai oh mai makes me drOoL just thinking of it.

Hence the SUPER satisfied

FACES. TADAa :)

Then we went to watch Harry Potter. Bleah kinda disappointing lah esp if you read the book. The movie was really rushed and abrupt. Whadawaste !! BUT the POPCORN was Goot. YEah popcorn should always ALWAYS Always be sweet! All ya weirdOs who like it saLty.. WHY??? Heng my potter watching BUDS like it SChweeT! *CooKie Monster Chompin* OKay best part comes after MoOvie.. *kneels down and starts to pray* Dear Lord i thank thee for cows and their milk.. plants and their sugar.. men and their inventions and most of all i thank thee for BEN and JERRY *woot* Ahhh describing it with words would be a terrible terrible injustice so heres the pictures... everybody put on the BIBS.

I cant remeber the flavours for it was like a DREaM... phish food..cookie dough.. chocolate fudge something i rem alot of chocolate... so much chocolate until we felt abit sick so we decided to wash it down with a lil... strawberry, mint chocolate and chucky monkay WowEE

MOre satisfied LOOKs and MONsters.... whew and thats onli freedom dae 1... one whole month more to go.... *evil laugh* i cant waittttttttttttt my drool shall flood the LANDS

Denise was cranky at 12.39am

2005-11-16T08:29:00.000-08:00

Studying for exams drives me MAD.

Cant really figure out if i'm Happy or Sad.

Waking up real early then sleepin kinda late

then i cant even remember what i just ate...

sit on benches till my bum is SORE

yet day after day i come back for more!?!

Freezing my fingers and my toes..

we're all dressing like the EskiMos!!

Drowning myself in coffee and tea..

then every 20 minutes, JiaLat have to PEE...

I look around, searching for solace

but i'll have better luck finding a dinosaurus.

The real question i'm dying to ask,

what is worse? Muggin, or being hit by a BUS!

Random Pics. I miss my Bitches..

2005-11-13T09:45:00.000-08:00

I love the spice girls and i ain too proud to admit that!!

2005-11-12T05:52:00.003-08:00

so i was supposed to go to school today but i didn't.
because
(a) i slept too late last night
(b) mum forgot to wake me till it was kinda late and i took it as a sign to sleep in

so then been writing my stats cheet sheets all day.. very draining arh.. we are allowed 8 pages i'm, at chapter 8 now and still on first sheet.. so should be no problem but i'm really tired and my mind has started to wander and i'd like to raise some important questions

1. Why do i insist on staying home so much when i know i'm more efficient in school??
2. Why did Westlife do a cover of Josh Groban's "You raise me up" with the exact same music settings, background vocals and all?? Its exactly the same! just 4 guys doing what 1 guy can do much much better much much MUCH better!! *roll eyes* maybe they should call it the "we-look-prettier-but-sound-rubbish 2005 REmiX"
3. Why is it that i can bathe and feel sticky all over again in half an hour??
4. Why do i bother to bathe then?
5. Why do the lecturers insist on crampin so much into a module... it makes it impossible to study.
6. Why am i still sharing a room with my sister? i'm like 20!!!!!
7. Why havent i KILLED my sister in her sleep? i must have amazin tolerance, patience either that or her dirt and mess and tissue paper mountain has evolved into some virus that infected my neuro system rendering me unable to inflict pain on her!
8. Why is it i study for like 2 hours str8 and the moment i take out the lap top to take a break, the mother walks in and NAGS......

message received loud and clear!!

2005-11-12T05:52:00.002-08:00

sometimes when God replies, he dun just send you a small sign. He whips out the flashing neon sign boards, he uses the loudhailer with amplifier super-woofer, surround sound... Dolby digital ans this morning during mass, i got the message loud and clear. Remeber my post yesterdae, about my frustrations of not doing good in school and painting mugs for a living.. well during sermon today this is what Fr martin said... " we are all given different gifts and talents and these gifts and talents are not ours..they belong to the big investor above.. and what we choose to do with these gifts and talents are really our own choice.. but when we study and train, we must remeber that it is never for our own glory or prestige, when we expand our gifts we make it so that we can better carry out what God has planned for us.. we are all unique, sent to fufill a certain task that only we can fufill.. sure we can choose to bury that talent but the world and the people we are meant to touch will be 'poorer' because of that...like good poker players, we must learn when to HOLD and when to FOLD... so the next time we are faced with difficulties on what to do with our talents, say a prayer that sounds like this.. Dear Lord, the talents i have you have given to me. Grant me the grace then to know when to hold and when to fold." And so it was a huge reassurance for me.. he has given me my talents and he had planned what i am to do with it.. instead of fretting for no reason, i should ask him to let me know when to hold and when to fold... silly me...worry for nothing again.. with God, i always get the reassurance i need to carry on and now that i've made it a point to pray before i start revision, things are finally picking up speed.. oh man How sweet it is to be loved by him!! heh.. The best part, is that for thanksgiving hymn, we sung "You are Mine" its my ultimate favourite him and each time i'm deeply troubled, it will be sung.. i felt so comforted i was about to cry..happy tears of course.. whao.. thanks GOD!!!!

i'm not smart and i cant be hardworking

2005-11-12T05:52:00.000-08:00

Being around smart people is scary. It really is. Then i wonder.. i've never been a TOP student why on God's green earth am i muggin so hard now? maybe i just ain cut out for that kinda stuff..UROPS, Masters, PhD..schlorships... is it a case of regret.. maybe i should've cultivated a mugger sttitude earlier then i would be so stuck in the rut at the moment.. *shrugs* at least nobody can say i never tried.. because i sure am.. maybe some people are cut out for bigger stuff and i, well lets just say maybe i can paint mugs for a living or something. Today is just one of those days where you (out of the blue) decide to stop and think about your future. Do i have a future....? sigh even if i wanted to do UROUPS, i dun even think the Profs would want me lor.. i'm like just drifting through uni life.. i'm not a go getter.. the thought of having to go one on one and convince a prof to take me in is cow-ass scary to me.. i think of the questions he will ask and i think i seriously may not have the answers...then i think.. second uppers.. *faints* the unreachable dream bah... if i get a cap of 4 this sem..4+3.56=7.56/2=3.78 then i need another 4 next sem..3.78+4=7.78/2=3.89... then another 4... 3.89+4=7.89/2=3.94 then 4... 3.97 then 4..3.98 HUH.. not even 4 lor.. OMG.. *shakes head* can someone tell me how to do well in NUS please....

2005-11-08T18:04:00.000-08:00

So. Busy mugging. Wait, let me rephrase.. busy trying to mugg..
So. My lecturer says rich people are impotent because they eat too much shark's fin and shark's fin is cartilage and thus high in mercury and thus IT KILLS YOUR SPERMS. It silences your TADPOLES. It murders your MOJO. so.. another reason not to eat shark's fin k!! When the buying STOPS, the killing CAN too.

Never TOo FULL

2005-11-03T06:31:00.000-08:00

Feasting. Thats what kings used to do.. i decided to carry on that age old tradition lah, Whats living without good food and good company yah. So yesterday after Physio test we headed to Plaza Sing.. wanted to catch a movie then remembered that eve of public hols abit ex lah.. then when we were on NEL this lady had pizza with her and she was sittin right beside us!?!?!?!? aiyoh.. i tried everything inclusing breathin thru my mouth but i couldn't stop salivating.. i thought i was the only one suffering in silence.. then i couldnt take it anymore... " shall we eat pizza hut later??"*everybody simultaneously* "YES!!!" the response was so enthusiastic it almost drowned the sound of our tummies growling.. heh pretty obvious i wasnt the only one salivatin.. pizza hut should consider that form of getting more customers man!.. This picture is small because i looked terribly UNGLAM... cannot arh.. its my blog leh got reputation and quality to uphold... my readers deserve good QC :p

Ling.. hope you like this..romantic hor.. got special effects one leh... like in a dream... a fairytale...

Yah and today.. went to Pete's Place at Grand Hyatt.. ITALIAN~!! I couldn't help fantasizing that i was eating with MichaeL Corleone (the Godfather!!) with all that romantic food... olive bread, sun dried tomato BUTTER... (yeah you heard me right), calamari, cheese baked eggplant *OoLAla*, Clams, Beef Ragout, Pasta, Tiramisu..Creme Brulee..chocolate Praline Cake.. ok i hope you're not currently drowning in your own DROoL... i got pics but will post em later.. if not i myself also cannot tahan arh.. and the ambience is there is real good too.. good service the type that anticipates your needs.. till next time~! Tata or should i say Ciao~!

angels! thats what you are,

2005-10-31T09:04:00.000-08:00

I was this close to losin it this afternoon, this friggin close. Its funny how some days you feel like you're in total control and then the devil sneaks one up on ya.. a day like the one i had today.. totally throws you off balance, shakes your confidence and makes you wanna break down and cry. I've been there baby.. that miserable place where all you can do is cry and you feel like you died and whats left is a useless empty shell that will crack under the slightest weight. That feeling of helplessness, its simply paralysing and Oh Boy! i dun want none of that no more seriously i do not wanna go back down that road. I guess its time like this, shitty times like this where you sit down and re-evaluate your life you tell yourself whats important and whats not, if its really not that important to you, then tOss It AsIdE!! Dun give a flammin rat's ass about it no more seriously! you know what else about days like this are worth cherishing? You can SO FeEL the LoVe.. times like this let you realise not only whats important, but WHO's important. Once you single out those people, cherish them man.. take out the hook and chains, duct tape, bolts and stapler guns cause you dun wanna ever lose them.. and you do the right thing k.. go up to em when you have the chance, and you tell them how much it means that they bothered to put their own worries on pause just so you can feel like your troubles are more important..and the next time its their turn to feel absolutely shitty, you make sure your worries go into auto-pause mode as well.. You Make Sure!!
I used to feel unworthy of my friends, actually i still do but for different reasons.. i never understood how someone as dowdy looking as i was could have friends that were popular and babes and model students..i often thought of myself as the Screech character from Saved by the Bell.. you know how those teen shows always have the in gang and then a geeky one who is kinda part of their group but whom everyone only knew by the nickname..yah that was who i always felt i was... therfore i felt unworthy.. today, i feel unworthy because i see that frens have beautiful souls.. yeah the exterior i dun care about anymore... but its like god sent specially chosen guardian angels to give up their wings to be with me...
i'm sleepy now, cant freakin keep my eyes open.. i will continue with this deep conversation some other day ciao~!

9 Million Bicycles

2005-10-28T12:14:00.000-07:00

I find it cute, kinda sweet actually i cant decide if its sweet or the dumbest lyrics in the world by well you decide k.. or get a good laugh.. click play on the right handside column.. Enjoy!!

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing

That's a fact

It's a thing we can't deny

Like the fact that I will love you till I die

We are twelve billion light years from the edge

That's a guess

No-one can ever say it's true

But I know that I will always be with you

I'm warmed by the fire of your love everyday

So don't call me a liar

Just believe everything that I say

There are six billion people in the world

More or less

And it makes me feel quite small

But you're the one I love the most of all

We're high on the wire

With the world in our sight

And I'll never tire

Of the love that you give me every night

There are nine million bicycles in Beijing

That's a fact

It's a thing we can't deny

Like the fact that I will love you till I die

And there are nine million bicycles in Beijing

And you know that I will love you till I die

people i lurve.

2005-10-28T10:49:00.000-07:00

my baby Wilson's been busy snappin pictures!

I am ONE with the sardines!

2005-10-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

Calling all students coming to NUS, plannin to come to NUS.. Go take Yoga courses now.. join a circus and learn from those elastic men who stick themselves into trunks.. why? why you ask.. because you'll need it in order to fit into the shuttle buses in school thats why!! Geez.. the buses are always Sosososososo FULL..i used to feel bad when i stepped on someone's foot or squash people but now.. after getting slapped by bags.. scarred by the sharp edges of files... blinded by bag straps.. almost braeking my neck when the uncle flew over the hump at 500km/hr!!!! man i've been to hell and back in those buses...Sardines and Tunas EVERYWHERE i salute thee and sympathize with thee for i understand fully how you feel being squashed in those damn cans.. the difference with being squashed with humans is... *whisper* they fart!!! geez.. alreadi not enough breathing space but somehow someone always farts.. HOLD IT IN LAH PPLE.. very jia lat leh..*pout*.. you'd think after makin it to university the only fight you'd have to undertake is for scholastic achievements who knew you'd have to fight to get ard school also.. *sigh* jialat..

Sing to ME

2005-10-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

I was on the way home today, listening to the slammin' music on my baby Wilson and i realised.. you know how they say the way to a man's heart is thru his stomach.. well then i guess the way to my heart would be thru the ears...yeah..my man has gotta sing his way to my heart... (tsk what were you thinking?) how can a girl resist a man who can sing.. or at least try to sing.. look guys you really have nuthin to lose.. do it well, and your girl will be swoonin..Try your best and your girl cant help but gush.. try it at least and even if you suck... you score extra point fer being willing to put yourself out there.. seriously guys its a win win situation..
sigh.. i went on to allow myself to day dream.. or evenin dream would be more temporally accurate... dreaming of Bon jovi singing I'll be there for you to me.. Oooo *sigh*.. almost missed my stop but hell it would've been So Worth It!

My promise to you.

2005-10-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

If you feel like crying
Then you should
Because frankly,
Anyone would

If you feel like talking,
Here I am
I’m right here,
I’ll hold your hand.

If you feel like reaching out
My hand’s outstretched
If you fall
I promise I’ll catch.

Yes there’s only One who can solve your woes
Only One to stop your foes
But there are many who love you, dear
Many many willing wipe your tears.

We see you’re hurting,
We know you’re down
But we know you’re strong
You won’t back down.

But if the pain gets hard to bear
Give us the chance to show we care
The burden becomes lighter when there’s more than one
Who knows? We may end up having fun.

Boys don’t cry because they are proud

As for girls, we’re allowed

This was the magazine cover i was talking about!

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Now you'll understand why i was swoonin..

Stand up for love

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STAND UP FOR LOVE
DESTINY'S CHILD

[Beyoncé]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own

And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on?
When every second, and every minute another soul is gone?
And I believe that in my life I will see(oh yea) an end to hopelessness, of
giving up, of suffering

[Chorus:]
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and hear me sing
Stand up for love

[Kelly]
I'm inspired and hopeful each and everyday
That's how I know that things are gonna change
So how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on?
When every second, with every minute another soul is gone?
And I believe that in my life I will see(I will see yeah)
An end to hopelessness(Hopelessness), of giving up(Giving Up), of suffering
(Suffering yah, yah)

[Chorus:]
If we all stand together this one time(Time)
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up for love

[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stands up and the rest will follow
For all the forgotten, for all the unloved
I'm gonna sing this song
And I believe that in my life I will see (yes, yes) an end to hopelessness, of
giving up, of suffering

[Chorus:]
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
Stand up for life
Stand up and sing yah
Stand up for love (for love, for love)

Maybe its all the suffering i've been witnessing.. maybe its all the hopelessness..maybe its all the death and despair..the earthquakes and tsunami and hurricanes.. maybe i just needed something inspiring, something emotionally uplifting.. This i think is Destiny's Child's swan song and i absolutely love it.. i guess they will be persuing individual careers but its still kinda sad because i think they are truly talented and i cant think of any other grp that can do this song better.. sigh Yes i do believe that in my life i will see an end to hopelessness, to giving up and to suffering. Stand up not only for Singapore hor..do it for love too..