i'm not smart and i cant be hardworking Being around smart people is scary. It really is. Then i wonder.. i've never been a TOP student why on God's green earth am i muggin so hard now? maybe i just ain cut out for that kinda stuff..UROPS, Masters, PhD..schlorships... is it a case of regret.. maybe i should've cultivated a mugger sttitude earlier then i would be so stuck in the rut at the moment.. *shrugs* at least nobody can say i never tried.. because i sure am.. maybe some people are cut out for bigger stuff and i, well lets just say maybe i can paint mugs for a living or something. Today is just one of those days where you (out of the blue) decide to stop and think about your future. Do i have a future....? sigh even if i wanted to do UROUPS, i dun even think the Profs would want me lor.. i'm like just drifting through uni life.. i'm not a go getter.. the thought of having to go one on one and convince a prof to take me in is cow-ass scary to me.. i think of the questions he will ask and i think i seriously may not have the answers...then i think.. second uppers.. *faints* the unreachable dream bah... if i get a cap of 4 this sem..4+3.56=7.56/2=3.78 then i need another 4 next sem..3.78+4=7.78/2=3.89... then another 4... 3.89+4=7.89/2=3.94 then 4... 3.97 then 4..3.98 HUH.. not even 4 lor.. OMG.. *shakes head* can someone tell me how to do well in NUS please....  ¶ 5:52 AM