Monday, September 04, 2006
One last cry.
i just had a good cry. I've been keeping the tears in all day since 4pm when i first heard of crocodile hunter - Steve Irwin's death. I wanted to cry in the tut room but i was with people i wasn't close to. I wanted to cry on the shuttle bus on the way to Arts but i knew pple would stare. I wanted to cry at FCG but i didn't want everybody to be affected. I needed to cry. When i got home, i saw my momma and i cried like a baby in her arms. I feel better now. i think.
Why am i so affected? I dunno i guess partly because he is someone i look up to, all he's done for animal conservation. I dreamt of the day i could maybe tackle a crocodile with Him (corny!!). His love and passion for the most misunderstood animals. His zest for life and love for his family. Maybe its because i've seen almost every episode of his television documentaries and on some level i feel like i know him personally..wierd.. but it happens with public figures doesn't it? Maybe its because i feel he has so much more to give to this world, so much life left to live..i mean what he contributes to our society on a daily basis is so much more important than what i offer everyday, why Him not me? And i feel so deeply for his wife who has to bring up the 2 young children on her own now.. I think of his australian zoo and his staff and friends and i cant help but imagine how lost and shattered they must feel now. More importantly i think i cry because i wonder - on the day i die, would i have played my part in contributing to the welfare of others like he did? I see the tributes to Him and wonder if the world would mourn like they are mourning Him when its my turn. Morbid. I know. But the lesson is so clear - you'd better live and love all you can because nobody knows where or when the Lord will call us home.
Such stuff is harder to handle when it comes all of a sudden. And now i look back and i'm so glad i rushed down to Singapore Zoo last sem when i heard he was coming to Singapore. People thought i was silly but imagine the regret i would be having now if i didnt.
I love you Steve. Crikey! Crocs Rock! ¶ 7:58 AM
Why am i so affected? I dunno i guess partly because he is someone i look up to, all he's done for animal conservation. I dreamt of the day i could maybe tackle a crocodile with Him (corny!!). His love and passion for the most misunderstood animals. His zest for life and love for his family. Maybe its because i've seen almost every episode of his television documentaries and on some level i feel like i know him personally..wierd.. but it happens with public figures doesn't it? Maybe its because i feel he has so much more to give to this world, so much life left to live..i mean what he contributes to our society on a daily basis is so much more important than what i offer everyday, why Him not me? And i feel so deeply for his wife who has to bring up the 2 young children on her own now.. I think of his australian zoo and his staff and friends and i cant help but imagine how lost and shattered they must feel now. More importantly i think i cry because i wonder - on the day i die, would i have played my part in contributing to the welfare of others like he did? I see the tributes to Him and wonder if the world would mourn like they are mourning Him when its my turn. Morbid. I know. But the lesson is so clear - you'd better live and love all you can because nobody knows where or when the Lord will call us home.
Such stuff is harder to handle when it comes all of a sudden. And now i look back and i'm so glad i rushed down to Singapore Zoo last sem when i heard he was coming to Singapore. People thought i was silly but imagine the regret i would be having now if i didnt.
I love you Steve. Crikey! Crocs Rock! ¶ 7:58 AM
