Tragedy..when the feelings gone and you cant go on.. Denise Tan Siew Hoong.
You need to toughen up. Thicken your skin and be prepared to make mistakes.

Thats what i tell myself everyday just to push myself. I am sucha chicken. I think its because my ego's so big i can't take the embarrassment or something. When i do something wrong or inappropriate even though unintentional, it just keeps playing in my head over and over again like some unending nightmare...OOoh my goodness i drive myself crazy.
And its like I'm 21 for goodness sake. If i'm not prepared to stick my neck out there how the hell am i ready to take on the adult working world.
Aw man sometimes i feel like i'm trapped in one of those tv shows about some awkward girl tryin to find herself in an all too crazy world. Man they should warn kids about growing up from a young age. Growing up is bad, evil and scary kids!! If you can help it, Don't...Grow...Up! Don't.

So the premise of this blog entry came from an encounter with a particularly scary female prof i have. She's a single, (more than) middle aged lady who will not hold back in voicing her utter disgust at every lil thing you do wrong! EVERYTHING. We have to do our own project planning for this module so we have to consult with her on what we plan to do.. and she's like.. DON'T DISTURB ME AT LUNCH TIME! ITS RUDE. I HATE STUDENTS TO DISTURN ME AT LUNCH TIME AND WHEN I WANNA GO HOME. and starts looking like some evil red eyed monster that'll eat you because you disturbed her lunch. And before you start to think i'm just another whiny sissy undergrad, EVEN THE GUYS ARE SCARED OF HER! for real!! the other day we wanted to try our luck and see if she's could see us since we were already in school and it was ard 12. So i asked the guys if it was a good idea.. and they all started shifting uncomfortably in their seats, voices lowered to a low cautionary tone.. "eh i think arh better not lah she really really hates people disturbing her at lunch.. really.. better wait till 2 la.. really man.."

Aaaaaanyway, we decided to make an appointment to see her this morning instead..and of all things, MY GRP MATE WAS LATE! BY 15 mins... my goodness.. it was like fear factor man sitting there waiting for him as the second hand of the clock ticked and ticked........... and yes there is a happy ending and nice lesson to be learnt..because although she was totally snide and sarcastic about us being late, she put that aside eventually to listen to what we had to say, she seemed genuinly interested in what we had to say and basically we came outta that meeting knowing what direction to take with the project which is good! and she chose my idea to expand on and thats good too!! knowing i made a valid observation and suggestion.. its a small affirmation that i'm on the right track so it was not that bad after all.........

And today i went to Bugis with the mother to get new jeans. I am telling you, if you a BIG girl like me and you need some one to tear down your self esteem and get the perfect lesson in thickening your skin, you shld totally go get you jeans from this auntie at bugis..man she tells you straight..."that one low rise one leh..you sure you can.. i think cannot la.. whao unless we get you big big size...arh you see you thighs wha... i think only our this jeans you can wear la...3 quarter i think cannot la.." SIGHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

AAaanyway, the secret to dealing with this big bad world, is surrounding yourself with happy things and people that love you and make you laugh.

Here's ending with Denise's pick of the week for funniest comeback line!!
My friend and I were talking about ABA (abcisic acid) for our plant physio report and we were getting confused and when he finally gave up trying to understand he said " haiya ABA i dun know much about but i know alot about ABBA.. the swedish band!" hilarious simply because he said it with a straight face. and followed with an ABBA medley.......  ¶ 7:16 AM