Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Black Horse and the Cherry Tree
A major bummer of growing up, is actually having to make grown (GROAN) up life decisions about your urm. life.
Which majorly sucks because i.m.h.o (for the uncool and unhip: In My Humble Opinion) i'm just not wise enough to make the right ones. My mum always told me i was mentally unsound or in her own words - SIAO and i believe her! Shes my mum for cryin out loud. I should certainly qualify fer some sort of certificate saying i'm unfit for life-decision-making. But ALAS (always liked that word, its a chi-chi way of saying WAH BIANG EH) life is unfair and I have come to the point where i have to make those damned decisions.
*if you are wondering to yourself at this point, why i'm rambling? its because its 8 Friggin' AM and i find myself in school (!?!?!?) revising for French test later. Which, if you know me well enough, means i've alrd downed 2 cups of coffee and am currently running on pure adrenaline*
*God i thanks thee for coffee plants and thus coffee beans and fire and humans to fry those beans and strainers and hot water and milk and cows for that matter and sugar and sugar cane and urm cups... and urm opposable thumbs! *
Back to the point of this post.
Why cant it be simple clear-cut decisions i have to make ? Mengapa? Why couldn't i have to choose between World Peace and Global Destruction for example. Now that choice would be clear. BUt no.............. first i had to get accepted for summer program at Canada and then relinquish my spot because it was a better decision to stay in Sin-gah-por *phhft* NOW, i thinking it may be a better decision to give up doing FYP with the Zoo and potential long term work for another project i think may be more beneficial at this point in time. SERIOUSLY. I dun know what to do. I pray but the replies are usually not that speedy arh. And i talk to the mother and she says ZOO ZOO ZOO.. dun want you stuck in the lab with flies no social life. The woman just wants me to stop studying and get married. I suspect she thinks we are still in the year 1786 or sumthing. NO HELP FROM THAT DEPARTMENT.
*anguish*
I know i may potentially sound like a spoilt brat. I know i should be grateful that i at least have choices. But its scary. You don't wanna grow up bitter for making the wrong choice you know. Gawd. You dun wanna be Halle Barry with the awards and accolades and then decide to do Catwoman and REGRET!! LIKE HELL.
ok la. should be studying francais. Au revoir~! ¶ 5:06 PM
Which majorly sucks because i.m.h.o (for the uncool and unhip: In My Humble Opinion) i'm just not wise enough to make the right ones. My mum always told me i was mentally unsound or in her own words - SIAO and i believe her! Shes my mum for cryin out loud. I should certainly qualify fer some sort of certificate saying i'm unfit for life-decision-making. But ALAS (always liked that word, its a chi-chi way of saying WAH BIANG EH) life is unfair and I have come to the point where i have to make those damned decisions.
*if you are wondering to yourself at this point, why i'm rambling? its because its 8 Friggin' AM and i find myself in school (!?!?!?) revising for French test later. Which, if you know me well enough, means i've alrd downed 2 cups of coffee and am currently running on pure adrenaline*
*God i thanks thee for coffee plants and thus coffee beans and fire and humans to fry those beans and strainers and hot water and milk and cows for that matter and sugar and sugar cane and urm cups... and urm opposable thumbs! *
Back to the point of this post.
Why cant it be simple clear-cut decisions i have to make ? Mengapa? Why couldn't i have to choose between World Peace and Global Destruction for example. Now that choice would be clear. BUt no.............. first i had to get accepted for summer program at Canada and then relinquish my spot because it was a better decision to stay in Sin-gah-por *phhft* NOW, i thinking it may be a better decision to give up doing FYP with the Zoo and potential long term work for another project i think may be more beneficial at this point in time. SERIOUSLY. I dun know what to do. I pray but the replies are usually not that speedy arh. And i talk to the mother and she says ZOO ZOO ZOO.. dun want you stuck in the lab with flies no social life. The woman just wants me to stop studying and get married. I suspect she thinks we are still in the year 1786 or sumthing. NO HELP FROM THAT DEPARTMENT.
*anguish*
I know i may potentially sound like a spoilt brat. I know i should be grateful that i at least have choices. But its scary. You don't wanna grow up bitter for making the wrong choice you know. Gawd. You dun wanna be Halle Barry with the awards and accolades and then decide to do Catwoman and REGRET!! LIKE HELL.
ok la. should be studying francais. Au revoir~! ¶ 5:06 PM
